Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
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Sitting up in bed she saw hanging in mid-air just outside the window a
huge crimson lamp, circular in a blue darkness. Sleepily she cried her
thanks and leaped awake to dwell with the strange spectacle, the gently
startling picture, in its sudden huge nearness, of the loveliness of
space. The little distant moon, enormous and rosy in blue mist, seemed
to float in the blue as in blue water, seemed to have floated close in
sheer unearthly kindliness, to comfort her thoughts on this last day
with something new and strange.
The day passed with heartless swiftness, savourless. Full of charms
whose spell failed under the coming loss.
CHAPTER X
And for the last morning again a strange surprise. Mountains and valley
were hidden behind impenetrable mist, even the nearest objects were
screened by the thickly falling snow. Alpine winter tremendously at
work, holding her fascinated at windows downstairs, upstairs; mighty
preparation for the beauty of days she would not see, robbing her of
farewell, putting farewell back into yesterday’s superficial seeing
which had not known it was the last.
But when she was forced to turn away to her packing she found, within
the light of this veiled world that cast within doors a strange dark
brilliance, something of the London gloom, and the enjoyment of a
concentrated activity that had always been one of the gifts of a London
fog. It was as if already she were translated, good-byes said and the
journey begun. The hours ahead became a superfluous time, to be spent in
a Switzerland whose charm, since London had reached forth and touched
her, had fallen into its future place as part of life: an embellishment,
a golden joy to which she would return.
And when she saw the guests assembled at lunch in full strength it was
as though having left them for good she returned for a moment to find
them immersed in a life to which she was a stranger. Confined by the
weather, they had produced the pile of letters waiting in the lounge and
were now rejoicing in unison over the snowfall. In speech and silence
each one revealed himself, but as a dream-revival of someone known long
ago; and in the dream it was again as on that first evening when she had
sat a listening outsider, fearing and hoping to be drawn in, and again
it was Mrs. Harcourt who, when her association with these people was
seeming to be a vain thing cancelled, drew her in with a question.
The short hour expanded. Once more she was caught into the medium of
their social vision, into the radiance that would shine unchanged when
she was gone and was the secret of English social life and could, if it
were revealed to every human soul, be the steering light of human life
throughout the world. These people were the fore-runners, free to be
almost as nice as they desired.