Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
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And then, with the suddenness of a rapid river, her coming freedom
flowed in upon her, carrying her outside this pleasant enclosure towards
all that could be felt to the full only in solitude amongst things whose
being was complete, towards that reality of life that withdrew at the
sounding of a human voice.
It was already from a far distance that, alone with her upon the
landing, she promised Mrs. Harcourt remembrance and letters, said
good-bye and saw once more her first diffident eagerness; felt that it
was she, withdrawn since the first days, who had yet lived her life with
her, transferred something of her being into the gathered memories and
would keep them alive, keep the mountain scene in sight near at hand.
Alone in her room still thinking of Mrs. Harcourt, she remembered from
“Ships that Pass in the Night” how on the last day all but one person
had forgotten the departing guest.
Then in getting up from lunch she had seen them all, unknowing, for the
last time—as yesterday the mountains. For all these people hidden away
in their rooms, immersed in their own affairs, she was already a figure
slid away and forgotten. With the paying of Frau Knigge’s bill her last
link with the Alpenstock had been snapped.
But when the coach-horn sounded and she went down into the hall, there
they all were, gathering round, seeing her off. Hurriedly, with the door
open upon the falling snow and the clashing of sleighbells, she clasped
for the first time strange and friendly hands, saw, in eyes met full and
near, welcome from worlds she had not entered. Beside the door she met
Daphne forgotten, who clutched and drew her back into the window space
for desperate clinging, and entreaties sounding lest for this new
slow-witted lover the searching gaze should not be enough.
It was not until she was inside the dark coach and its occupants had
thanked heaven she was English and let down a window, that she
remembered Vereker. He alone had made no farewell.
The coach pulled up outside the post-office and there he stood in the
driving snow, and all the way down the valley she saw them one by one
and saw him standing in great-coat and woollen helmet, heard his elegant
light distressful voice begging her to come out next year.
And brighter now than the setting they had charmed was the glow these
people had left in her heart. They had changed the aspect of life, given
it the promise of their gentle humanity, given her a frail link with
themselves and their kind.
She climbed into a carriage whose four corners were occupied and sat
down to the great journeying.
“History repeats itself.”
Looking up she found all about her the family from Croydon, met the
father’s quizzical brown eyes.
“Had a farewell kick-up at our place last night. We’re feeling the
effects. _You_ look very fit. Enjoyed yourself?”
“I’ve had a splendid time.”
“You collared the handsomest man in Oberland anyhow—that young giant of
a Russian.”
“Italian.”
“Bless my soul! Hear that, Doris?”