Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7
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Would it happen? Would she agree? He was impatient, but deferring. Alma
sat considering, in the attitude Mr. Stoner had called a pretty snap,
her elbows meeting on the table, her chin on her slender hands; just its
point, resting on the bridge they made laid flatly one upon the other.
It was natural in her. But by now she knew that men admired natural
poses. _He_ was admiring, even through his impatience.
"I didn't suggest it. I've never slept out in my life."
"You suggested it, Miriam. My death, all our little deaths from
exposure, will lie at your door." The swift personal glance he dealt her
from the midst of his watching swept round to Miss Prout and flashed
into admiration as he turned, still sideways surveying her, to bend his
voice on Alma.
"It's quite manageable, eh, Susan?" Miriam followed his eyes. Miss Prout
had risen and was standing away from the table posed like a
Gainsborough; challenging head, skirts that draped and spread of
themselves, gracefully, from the slenderness of her body. She was
waiting, indifferent, interpreting the scene in her way, interpreting
the other women for him, united with him in interpreting them....
Alma relaxed and looked up, holding the matter poised, deliberately
locating the casting vote before breaking into enthusiasm. He paid
tribute, coming round the table companionably to her side, but still
looking from face to face, claiming audience.
"We'll break out. Each bring its little mattress and things. After
they've retired. Yes, I think, _after_ they've retired." Why the
conspirator's smile? The look of daring? What of the servants? They were
bound, anyhow, to know in the morning.
It was glorious to rush about in the lit house, shouting unnecessary
remarks. People shouting back. Nobody attending. Shouting and laughing
for the sake of the jolly noise. Saying more than could be said in talk.
Admitting.
And then just to lie extinguished in the darkness wondering what point
there was in sleeping out if you went to sleep at once. All that jolly
tumult. And he had been so intent on the adventure that he had let Miss
Prout change her mind without protest, _only_ crying out from the midst
of busily arranging his bed on the lawn.... "Have you seen Miriam's
pigtails?"
And suddenly everything was prim; the joy of being out in the night
surging in the air, waiting for some form of expression. They didn't
_know_ how to be joyful; only how to be clever.... She hummed a little
song and stopped. It wreathed about her, telling off the beauties of the
night, a song sung by someone else, heard, understood, a perfect
agreement.
"What is she doing?"
"She's sitting up, waving her banana in the air; conducting an
orchestra, I think."