Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7
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She was in the open roadway, passing into the deeps of the central
freedom of Piccadilly Circus, the crowded corner unknowingly left
behind. Just ahead was the island, the dark outline of the fountain, the
small surmounting figure almost invisible against the shadowy upper mass
of a bright-porched building over the way. The grey trottoir, empty of
the shawled flowerwomen and their great baskets, was a quiet haven. The
surrounding high brilliancies beneath which people moved along the
pavements from space to space of alternating harsh gold and shadowy
grey, met softly upon its emptiness, drawing a circle of light round the
shadow cast by the wide basin of the fountain. There was a solitary
man's figure standing near the curb, midway on her route across the
island to take to the roadway opposite Shaftesbury Avenue; standing
arrested; there was no traffic to prevent his crossing; a watchful
habitué; she would pass him in a moment, the last fragment of the
west-end ... good-bye, and her thoughts towards gaining the wide
homeward-going lane. A little stoutish dapper grey-suited ... _Tommy
Babington!_ Standing at ease, turned quite away from the direction that
would take him home; still and expressionless, unrecognisable save for
the tilt of his profile and the set of his pince-nez. She had never
before seen him in unconscious repose, never with this look of a
motionless unvoyaged soul encased in flesh; yet had always known even
when she had been most attracted, that thus he was. He had glanced. Had
he recognised her? It was too late to wheel round and save his solitude.
Going on, she must sweep right across his path. Fellow-feeling was
struggling against her longing to touch, through the medium of his
voice, the old home-life so suddenly embodied. He had seen her, and his
unawakened face told her that she would neither pause nor speak. Years
ago they would have greeted each other vociferously.... She was now so
shrouded that he was not sure she had recognised him. Through his
stupefaction smouldered a suspicion that she wished to avoid
recognition. He was obviously encumbered with the sense of having placed
her amidst the images of his preoccupation. She rushed on, passing him
with a swift salute, saw him raise his hat with mechanical promptitude
as she stepped from the curb and forward, pausing an instant for a
passing hansom, in the direction of home. It was done. It had always
been done from the very beginning. They had met equally at last. This
was the reality of their early association. Her spirits rose, clamorous.
It was epical she felt. One of those things arranged above one's head
and perfectly staged. Tommy of all people wakened thus out of his
absorption in the separated man's life that so decorated him with
mystery in the feminine suburbs; shocked into helpless inactivity; glum
with an irrevocable recognising hostility. It had been arranged. Silent
acceptance had been forced upon him, by a woman of his own class. She