Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7
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Exeter was another. Keeping the shapes of civilisation. Charming at tea
parties.... Knowing all the worldly things, made of good style from her
perfect brow and nose to the tip of her slender foot ... made to shine
at Ascot. It was only because she knew so much about Mrs. Drake's secret
drinking, that Mrs. Drake said suddenly in that midnight moment when
Exeter had swept off to bed after a tiff, "_I_ don't go to hotels, with
strange men." I was reading that book of Dan Leno's and thinking that if
they would let me read it aloud their voices would be different; that
behind their angry voices were real selves waiting for the unreal sounds
to stop. Up and down the tones of their voices were individual
inflexions, feminine, innocent of harm, incapable of harm, horrified
since their girlhood by what the world had turned out to be.... It was
an awful shock. But Exeter paid her young man's betting debts and kept
him on his feet. And _he_ was divorced. And so _nice_. But weak. Still
he had the courage to shoot himself. And then _she_ took to backing
horses. And now married, in a cathedral, to a vicar; looking angelic in
the newspaper photograph. He has only one regret ... their
childlessness. "Er? Have _children_?" Yet Mrs. Drake would be staunch
and kind to her if she were in need. Women are Jesuits....
From the first, in Eleanor's mind, had shone, unquestioned, the shape of
English life. Church and State and Family. God above. Her belief was
perfect; impressive. In all her dealings she saw the working of a higher
power, leading her to her goal. When her health failed and her vision
receded, she clutched at the nearest material for making her picture. In
all she had waded through, her courage had never failed. Nor her charm;
the charm of her strength and her singleness of vision. Her God, an
English-speaking gentleman, with English traditions, tactfully ignored
all her contrivances and waited elsewhere, giving her time, ready to
preside with full approval, over her accomplished aim.... Women are
Jesuits.... The counterpart of all those Tansley Street women was little
Mrs. Orly, innocently unscrupulous to save people from difficulty and
pain....
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