Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
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Oldfield. It had come about through Dr. Salem Oldfield. She could not
remember his arrival. Only suddenly realising him, one evening at dinner
when he had been long enough in the house to chaff Mrs. Bailey about
some imaginary man. Sex-chaff; that was his form of humour; giving him
away as a nonconformist. But so handsome, sitting large and square, a
fine massive head, well shaped hair, thick, and dinted with close
cropped waves; talking about himself in the eloquent American way. It
was that night he had told the table how he met his fiancée. He was a
charlatan, stagey; but there must have been something behind his clever
anecdotal American piety. Something remained even after the other
doctors' stories about his sharing their sitting-room and books, without
sharing expenses; about his laziness and self-indulgence.
Mr. Chadband. But why shouldn't people on the way to Heaven enjoy
buttered toast? A hypocrite is all the time trying to be something, or
he wouldn't be a hypocrite.... And the story he told was _true_.... Dr.
Winchester knew. It was with his friends at Balham that the girl had
been staying. Wonderful. His lonely despair in Uganda; the way he had
forced himself in the midst of his darkness to visit the sick convert
... and found the answer to his trouble in a leaflet hymn at the
bedside; and come to London for his furlough and met the authoress in
the very first house he visited. Things like that don't happen unless
people are real in some way. And the way he had admired Michael; and
liked him.
It had been Michael he had taken to the Quaker meeting. But there must
have been some talk with him about religion, to lead up to that sudden
little interview on the stairs, he holding a book in one large hand and
thumping it with the other.... "You'll find the basic realities of
religious belief set forth _here_; in this small volume. Your George Fox
was a marvellous man." There was an appealing truth in him at that
moment, and humility.... But before his footsteps had died away she knew
she could not read the book. Even the sight of it suggested his
sledge-hammer sentimental piety. Also she had felt that the religious
opinions of a politician could not clear up the problems that had
baffled Emerson. It was only after she had given back the book that she
remembered the other George Fox and the Quaker in _Uncle Tom's Cabin_.
But she had said she had read it and that it was wonderful, to silence
his evangelistic attacks, and also for the comfort of sharing, with
anybody, the admission that there was absolute wonderfulness.