Saul of Tarsus: A Tale of the Early Christians — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Saul of Tarsus: A Tale of the Early Christians
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"By Ate! the boy is spectacular," Agrippa vowed suddenly. "He is no
Nazarene! I know how he came by that unholy amulet. It is a relic of
that young heretic friend of his, whom they stoned in Jerusalem!"
But Junia found immense amusement in that surmise. Presently, she
laughed outright.
"O Classicus, what a blunderer thou art! Right or wrong, thou hast
brought down the ladies' wrath, not upon the comely Essene, but upon
thine own head for abusing him!"
CHAPTER XVIII
THE RANSOM
Marsyas passed up to his room to put his belongings together. The
sound of his movements within reached Lydia in her refuge, and, when he
came forth, she stood in the gloom of the hall without, awaiting him.
Moved with a little fear of her reproach, he went to her, with extended
hands.
"What have I done?" she whispered.
"Thou hast done nothing," he said quickly. "I blame myself for keeping
the amulet about me, when I should have destroyed it. But I could
not--I have not yet; because--it is thine!"
"But I kept silence--I who owned the crucifix--"
"I made thee keep silence!"
"But what have they said to thee; what wilt thou do?" she insisted.
"I go without more obloquy than I brought hither with me; I was
accused, before; I could stand further accusation, for thy sake! They
have said nothing; done nothing--I go to Rhacotis, to await the
departure of Agrippa, who goes to Rome at the end of three days--nay;
peace!" he broke off, as a momentous resolution gathered in her pale
face. "Thou wilt keep silence, else I do this thing in vain!"
"I will not slander myself!" she cried. "I am not afraid to confess my
fault--"
"But thou shall not do it!" he declared. "The punishment for it would
not be alone for thyself! Choose between the quiet of thy conscience
and the peace and pride of thy father! Bethink thee, the inestimable
harm thou canst do by this thing! Be not deceived that the story of
thy lapse would be kept under thy father's roof. That ignoble pagan
governor below has no care for thy sweet fame! He would tell it; thy
maidens would hear of it and fear thee or follow thee! Thy father's
government over his people would be weakened; the elders of the
Synagogue would question him--Lydia, suffer the little hurt of
conscience for thine own account, rather than afflict many for thy
pride's sake!"
Her small hands, white in the darkness of the corridor, were twisted
about each other in distress. Marsyas' pity was stirred to the deepest.
"How unhappy thou hast been!" he said, touching upon her apostasy.
"Give over thy wavering and be the true daughter of God, once more!
Let us destroy this evil amulet!"
He plucked the crucifix from his tunic and caught it between his hands
to break it, when she sprang toward him and seized his wrists.
"Do not so!" she besought, her eyes large with fright.
He had forced her to defend it, and she had stood to the breach; he had
proved the gravity of her disaffection for the faith of Abraham.