Saul of Tarsus: A Tale of the Early Christians — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Saul of Tarsus: A Tale of the Early Christians
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"Why wilt thou endanger thyself for this social drift?" he demanded
passionately. "Lydia! How canst thou turn from the faith of thy
fathers?"
"I--I am not worthy to be a Nazarene!" she answered. "They are
forbidden to enact a falsehood!"
"Let be; I do not care for their philosophy; it is like the Law of
Rome.--an empty armor that any knave can wear. But I urge thee to
behold what misery thou invitest upon thyself! What will come of it?
Immortal as thou art in soul, thou canst not keep alive the single
spark of wisdom in the ashes of their folly; thou canst not save them
against the combined vengeance of the whole world! But thou canst be
disgraced with them, persecuted with them, and die with them!
Unhallowed the day that ever Classicus spoke their name to thee!
Cursed be his words! May the Lord treasure them up against him--!"
"Hush! hush!" she whispered.
He became calm with an effort.
"Lydia," he began after a pause, "it is a poor intelligence that can
not foresee as ably as the augurs. One successful life gives
opportunity, to all that spring from it, to be successful; a failure
scatters the seed of misfortune through all its blood. Choose thou for
thyself and thou choosest for a nation which comes after thee. I see
thee radiant, crowned, worshiped; and if they who come up under thy
guidance walk as thou dost walk, Lydia shall give queens unto
principalities and rulers unto satrapies. These be days when women of
virtue and women of remark; women of wisdom are remembered women. And
thou, virtuous, wise and noble--the empresses of coming Caesars will
assume thy name to conceal their tarnishment under a badge of luster!
This on one hand. On the other thou shalt flee from the stones of the
rabble, come unto the humiliation of thy womanhood and the agony of thy
body in the torture-cell, and die like a criminal!"
She shrank away with a quivering sound and flung her hands over her
ears. He caught her and drew her close, until she all but rested on
his breast.
"Lydia, naught but mine extremity could make me speak thus to thee," he
said tremulously and in a passion of appeal. "If the words be hideous,
let the actualities that they mean warn thee in time!"
"But--thou dost not understand," she faltered, drawing away from him.