Saul of Tarsus: A Tale of the Early Christians — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Saul of Tarsus: A Tale of the Early Christians
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He passed just then the intersecting road, but he continued after the
last camel. He walked after that through many drifts of fragrance, and
many hill birds sang, but he knew without looking that the flower face
was not turned back toward him again.
He halted for the night at a little village and sought the hospitality
of an Essene hermit that lived on the outskirts. But in the night,
terror for Stephen, of that unknown kind which is conviction without
evidence and irrefutable, seized him. He endured until the early
watches of the morning and took the road to Nazareth while the stars
still shone.
He had forgotten his fellow wayfarers of the previous afternoon until
their camels, speeding like the wind, overtook him beyond Mt. Ephraim.
In a vapor of flying scarves he caught again a glimpse of the flower
face turned his way.
Then for the first time in his life he reviled his poverty that forced
him to walk when the life of the much-beloved depended upon despatch.
Nazareth, clinging like a wasps' nest under the eaves of its chalky
hills, was many leagues ahead, and the sun must set and rise again
before he could climb up its sun-white streets.
His hope was not strong. His plan had won such little respect from him
that he had not ventured to propose it to Stephen. It was extreme
sacrifice for him to make, a sacrifice lifelong in effect, and in that
he based his single faith in its success. Stephen loved him and would
not persist in the fatal apostasy, if he knew that his friend, the
Essene, was to deny himself ambition and fame for Stephen's sake.
He would get his patrimony of the old master Essene who held it in
trust for him, formally give over his instruction, bind himself to the
perpetual life of husbandry and seclusion, and then tell Stephen what
he had done and why he had done it.
Everything else but the appeal to Stephen's love for him had failed,
and he had shrunk from forcing that trial.
But Saul had meant to go to the Synagogue at once; there were
innumerable chances that he was already too late.
At noon he came upon the party of travelers again. A fringed tent had
been pitched under a cluster of cedars and the slaves were putting away
the last of the meal. He saw now as he hurried by that there was a
spare and elegant old man, in magistrate's robes, reclining with
singular grace on a pallet of rugs before the lifted side of the tent.
The girl sat near. He noted also that the master and the slaves fell
silent as he approached and looked at him with interest.
But he sped on, forgetting that it was the noon and that he was hungry,
heated and weary, and remembering only that the time and the distance
were deadly long.