"I'm not a siren, and I don't say one thing and mean another, though I
know you find it difficult to believe that of any woman," she replied
curtly, and with head erect walked back through the French window into
the brightly-lit room. Once safely out of sight, she darted rapidly
upstairs to the safety of her own room.
In a minute or two she heard her name called softly through the door,
then the pleading whisper--
"Evarne, I can have no rest unless I know you are not angry with me."
She was silent for a moment, but the delay was brief. No resentment
could endure before the music of that dear voice. She guessed right well
that a locked door between them was all-sufficient for Morris to endure,
so answered him generously, as her heart prompted--
"Rest, then; rest happily now and ever."
Within the peaceful sanctuary of her delicate green and white bedroom,
the chief amid her more normal thoughts and feelings resumed their sway.
Foremost came that imperative demand for self-approbation--that pride in
self--that made her ever the slave of what she held to be honourable.
The spirit of righteousness sprang up alert, quick to wage war against
the mere suggestion that under any provocation--any excuse of
overwhelming stress of love--she should permit herself to be stained by
dishonour.
Strong and self-confident, the girl at last sank to sleep. But her
slumber was light, and early next morning she was awake and thoughtful.
She acknowledged being glad to have experienced the sensations of last
night--glad to have been granted that period of exaltation, and to have
revelled in it to the full. It had made all life seem more
understandable and interesting--yet it had brought about no wondrous
change of personality! Evarne still remained herself; still good and
conscientious and new to the ways of love; a young philosopher, and
therefore indulgent to the natural frailties of mankind. She esteemed
Morris not one whit the less for having shown himself but human;
yet--realising that he could not make her his wife--her conscience and
her wishes united in the resolution that love 'twixt him and herself
must ever remain a thing ethereal--a poem--a fair dream--a sweet
sentiment blossoming only in the soul.
She went to Florelli's as usual, but her studies occupied a very
secondary place in her thoughts. All she meant to say to Morris--all he
might perhaps answer--all the beautiful sentiments she had to express
and which she was sure must appeal so irresistibly to him--all the lofty
ideals of her soul that she was going to impart to his--obtruded
themselves between her mind and her drawing.
As she dressed for dinner that evening an unexpected shyness crept over
her, and it was with quite an effort that she went downstairs. But all
imagined difficulties and embarrassments faded like snow before the
sunlight of his eyes. Her own danced for joy at being in his presence
again, yet there was a touch of stiffness and formality in her demeanour
that was new.