No matter how great a control a man exercises over himself in ordinary
circumstances, brought face to face with the painfully unexpected it is
frequently the self-contained man who loses the grip on his emotions,
and with it his more extended outlook in favour of an immense
concentration upon the personal factor created by the new development.
The story which Pamela unfolded produced some such effect on Dare. The
emotions which moved him while listening to the sordid, pitiful tale
were varied. The story of Arnott's bigamous marriage enraged him. The
personal factor crept into that. The man had not only cheated the girl,
he had cheated him,--robbed him of the only woman he had ever wished to
marry. He had stolen her from him, having no right to her. This
thought filled him with a bitter sense of personal loss, of personal
injury. The element of self threw his imagination out of focus for the
time. He had a very strong feeling that he wanted to, that he had to,
punish Arnott for that mean deception. He would have enjoyed coming to
grips with the man.
Then he became acutely aware that Pamela was still talking, telling him
other things of an equally painful nature. With an effort he brought
his mind back to the subject.
This part of the story was more difficult to tell. Pamela told it in
short fragmentary sentences. She concealed nothing. She spoke of her
enlightenment, of the difficult choice offered her, and her inability to
choose the right course, in low strained tones and with downcast eyes.
She did not look at Dare while she spoke. He was standing in front of
the window, with his back to the opening, watching her with grave intent
face which betrayed little of what he was feeling as he listened to the
difficult recital. He was endeavouring, despite the disappointment her
confession caused him, to excuse, even to defend, her choice. As she
urged, there had been the child to consider, and at that time she loved
the man.
Then she spoke of the waning of Arnott's love, of his frequent
unkindness, and her own increasing indifference. Again Dare was
conscious of his personal interest in this part of the story. The
self-confessed decrease in her love for the man who was not her husband,
affected him directly. He felt glad that she had told him that.
She passed on to Arnott's infatuation for the girl, who was her
children's governess, of their disappearance on the same day, and the
inevitable conclusion which, against her own will, she had arrived at in
connection with that circumstance, and the fact that he had not written,
nor sent any explanation of his absence.
Then came the most difficult part of the whole narrative. Pamela had
fetched the cablegram, which she had found in Arnott's desk and
transferred to the safe, and this she placed in Dare's hand as the
simplest way of explaining the duplicity she found impossible to put
into words.