She looked better, he observed, than when he had last seen her; the
anxiety that had sharpened her features and shadowed her face with an
expression of dread had yielded to a new calm, which suggested a mind
braced and prepared to meet and accept whatever offered. Her composure
helped him enormously in quieting his nervousness, which before, and at
the moment of, his entry had been excessive. He took her extended hand
and held it.
"You bring me bad news?" she said, observing his grave face with a
watchful scrutiny, and speaking in that quiet, level voice that one uses
sometimes in discussing things too serious and strange for ordinary
emotion. "I felt it must be bad news when your telegram arrived...
You've seen him?"
"No," he answered.
He led her to the sofa near the French window on which he had sat with
her before when they had had their last interview. The memory of that
former occasion was present in his mind. It was possibly present in
Pamela's mind also; but the recollection caused no sense of
embarrassment. Her love for, and confidence in, him had swept all
feeling of constraint away. He seated himself beside her.
"I wrote to you," he said; "but I decided not to send the letter. I
felt it was best to come down and explain. Mr Arnott is in Pretoria.
I went there for the purpose of seeing him; but he is ill, and unable to
see any one. I had an interview with the doctor who is attending his
case. I thought you would wish to know exactly how matters are with
him."
He paused. Pamela was gazing at him with wide serious eyes. She showed
less surprise than he had expected. She appeared somehow prepared, and
extraordinarily calm. It made the telling easier. It was as though she
had passed the final stage of emotionalism, had come through all the
stresses of anguished uncertainty, of distressed and tormented doubt and
wounded love, and emerged calm-eyed and efficient, amazingly controlled,
and clear as to her judgment. She listened attentively without
interrupting him. When he paused, she said:
"You are not preparing me to hear that he is dead?"
"No," he answered. His feelings got the better of him, and he added
bluntly,--"I would to God I were! Life--all that is left of it for
him--isn't worth the having. And anyway, living or dead, he isn't
worthy of one thought of your compassion."
"Then he did go away with Blanche?" she said quietly.
"He followed her. He meant to marry her--means to marry her still, if
her statement is to be believed. I saw her in Bloemfontein. It was she
who told me of his illness."