There was a further silence. Pamela dared not venture upon speech
because of the tears which would have choked her utterance had she
attempted to express her feelings aloud. He was so much more honest
than she was, so much finer and stronger. She held him in her thoughts
so highly placed that Dare would have been amazed and considerably
embarrassed could he have realised the pinnacle to which he was elevated
in the opinion of this woman, whom he was conscious of looking up to as
infinitely better and simpler and altogether nobler of intention than
himself. Compared with her direct and decent conceptions of life, her
quiet acceptance of duty, and sense of responsibility, his ideas
appeared carnal and extraordinarily limited and self-centred. He did
not want to give up anything. He rebelled at the sacrifice demanded of
him. It was only because he recognised the impossibility of shaking her
resolution that he submitted at all. Had she weakened for a single
moment he would have set himself to wear down her resistance with the
first sign of faltering on her part. He had watched jealously for some
sign of her yielding from the hour when they were alone together, away
from the influences that had surrounded her in her home. During the
past two days of intimacy and close companionship his hopes had run
high. He did not understand how, loving him as she did, and admitting
her love so freely, she could yet persist in her determination to marry
the man who had wronged her so grievously. It was beyond his powers of
comprehension entirely. The day would come, he believed, when she would
recognise her mistake, would possibly even acknowledge it. It was for
that day he would wait. When it dawned, as dawn it surely must, he
would be ready.
The night grew colder as it advanced. Dare unstrapped the rugs and
wrapped them about their knees. Pamela was enveloped in his overcoat,
with nothing of herself visible but the dim outline of her face showing
above the collar, crowned by the pale masses of her hair. She felt
wonderfully comfortable and wakeful.
This rushing through the windy starlight, through unfamiliar country
shrouded in the dusk and mystery of night, darkly revealed in silhouette
against the lighter sky, exhilarated her, filled her with a sense of
beauty and ever deepening wonder, as mile after mile was passed in the
noisy rush of that symbol of modern activity through the heart of a
partially developed country. Black objects, shapes of trees and
outlines of scattered homesteads, started up out of the surrounding
obscurity, flashed darkly for a second on the landscape, and vanished,
and were succeeded by other shapes, formless, vaguely distinct outlines,
distorted and magnified in the gloom. The quiet remote beauty of night
lay like a softening shadow upon the face of the land.