"I have always loved the night," Pamela said, speaking softly as though
wishful to avoid disturbing the tranquillity by raising her tones; "but
I have never loved it so well before, felt so at one with it. It shuts
out the world, doesn't it? ... shuts out everything."
"It's you in the night I love," he said. "That's where the magic for me
comes in. If I hadn't you beside me I should probably be sleeping.
Place and time don't count, Pamela,--it's companionship that matters.
See the dawn, dear,--just breaking. In a short while it will be light."
"Yes."
She stirred restlessly. The thought of what the new day held for her
troubled her insistently, filled her with a shrinking sensation of
dread. Before another dawn should break she would be faced with
gigantic issues; the biggest crisis of her life would have been met.
What did the future hold for her, she wondered. Had it lain in her
power to lift the veil she would not have dared to look.
"I'm dreading the day, dear," she said, a little tremulously. "I'm such
a coward... I'm afraid,--of him."
"He's a sick man, Pamela," he said, desirous of reassuring her.
"Illness changes a man."
"I know," she said.
She was quiet for a while, watching the paling stars in the slowly
brightening heavens, observant of the gradual definement of the
landscape, as the light revealed it, first as a clear colourless picture
in the grey dawn, and later as a wonder of separate distinct shades of
green and amber beneath a sky already flushing with the promise of the
day.
He tried to distract her thoughts by speaking on impersonal topics, by
bringing the talk back again after a while to themselves. He did not
speak of love. That was all past and done with. He assumed a new
attitude, was quietly protective and helpful and reassuring. He drew up
her plans for her, and settled where they would stay. It was Pamela's
wish that they should go to the same hotel. He had suggested separate
hotels; but he gave in to her pleading. After all what did it matter?
He was there to advise and help her; it was better that he should be at
hand.
"I am leaving everything to you," she said, regarding him wistfully.
"Of course," he answered. "That's what I'm here for."
"There's one thing,"--she paused, then completed the sentence--"I want
you to do, if you don't mind... It's been troubling me. Would you tell
the doctor,--what you think necessary to make him understand? I
shouldn't know how to explain..."
He smiled down into the distressed blue eyes, and laid his hand warmly
upon hers.
"I never intended you should explain," he answered. "That's my job
too."
CHAPTER THIRTY ONE.