"I'm not sorry," he said, looking immeasurably relieved. "I'd rather
have a quiet evening with you, Pam. Last night tired me; I'm feeling
cheap."
"It was thoughtless of me to have asked him," said Pamela contritely.
"But it's all right, as it happens. We'll have a Darby and Joan dinner,
and you shall be as surly as you please, and sit and smoke all the
evening. There."
He pinched her ear.
"I'll take you at your word one of these days; and you'll see what a
bear I can be."
Pamela slipped her hand through his arm and they left the bedroom
together. Although she had made a joke of the quiet evening they would
spend, she knew quite well that he would sit as she had promised he
should, silent and abstracted, so lost in gloomy thought that he would
seem oblivious of her presence. She had seen him in this mood
frequently of late, and had grown familiar with the symptoms.
At dinner, quietly observant of him, she noticed that he ate scarcely
anything; but he drank more than usual. When he exceeded his customary
allowance, it did not loosen his tongue; he became morosely silent, and
betrayed a tendency towards irritability if spoken to. Pamela was a
tactful woman, and knew when to be silent. But she was beginning to
resent her husband's want of confidence in her. If there was a secret
worry that pressed upon his mind so that it threatened to become a
serious trouble, he ought to share it with her. His silence showed a
lack of trust. Surely by now he ought to realise that her love was
sufficiently strong to help her to understand and sympathise with him in
any trouble that might overtake him. She desired to share his full
confidence, to have the strength of her love put to the test. There was
no shadow of doubt in her own mind that it would rise to meet any
occasion. A love which is entirely strong has no fear of the fire.
"To-morrow," she told herself, and stilled a cowardly impulse to put the
date further off, "when he is more himself, I will ask him to trust me."
Then she got up quietly, moved to the back of his chair, and kissed him
on his forehead. He made no direct response, but his eyes, as they
followed her from the room, were alight with a passionate hunger that
quenched in its fiercer fire the slightly furtive expression of dread
which marred their ordinary frankness.
CHAPTER FOUR.