"I don't know," he said. "I am beginning to doubt myself, whether it is
really love which brings the greater part of the world together. Not
infrequently curiosity is at the bottom of it,--or the desire to make a
home. The majority of cases, of course, are the result of passion,--the
fundamental scheme for the continuance of the race. I don't see that
it's much use bothering one's head about these matters. I married when
I was a hot-headed young fool; after I found out my mistake--too late.
I met love... Well, I suppose I ought to have turned my back on love,--
and I didn't. There you are."
"Yes," Pamela returned slowly. "That is just the part I find it
impossible to excuse. That was your big error; and it is going to be
responsible for our further wrong-doing."
"Look here!" he cried. "Life is in one's own hands. One either makes
it difficult by moralising, or simple by being philosophical and taking
all it has to offer. It holds a lot of good for you and me, Pam... Why
moralise?"
"Because," Pamela answered, and her eyes filled with unexpected tears,
"in making a deliberate choice of evil I don't wish to cheat myself into
believing that it is the only course open to me; it isn't. If I am a
bad woman, I will at least be sincere."
He took her two hands and held them between his own and looked with
kindly tolerance into the sweet, distressed face. He no longer felt any
need to plead with her; he knew his case was won. Very tenderly he put
her hands to his lips.
"You odd inconsistency," he murmured, "how you delight in tormenting
yourself! Can't you see that in this matter you are entirely blameless?
All the evil is mine. You are driven into a corner, poor child.
Nobody in his senses would hold you responsible. Put the blame on to
me, Pam,--I'm equal to shouldering it." He slipped an arm about her,
and drew her closer. "If it had all to be gone through again, I'd do
the same."
CHAPTER SEVEN.