The thing was an amazing revelation to Pamela. Though she had realised
for a long while that Herbert's love for her was no longer of the ardent
quality that at one time, when separation had seemed imminent, had made
their parting impossible, she had not supposed, despite the warning in
his wife's letter, despite her own bitter experience in watching the
waning of his love, that he was a man of loose principles who pursued
women idly for the gratification of a sensual nature. The discovery was
a shock to her. She felt wounded and humiliated. It was an added
degradation for her to reflect that the man she had loved so well, who
had ruined her life, for whose sake she was living, according to the
world's judgment, in sin, was not the fine character she had believed
him to be,--was merely a selfish profligate, hunting women for his
pleasure, and carelessly breaking their lives. At least she would save
Blanche from him, if that were possible. It was no easy task for Pamela
to undertake. She lacked the power of the wife's authority; and she
realised perfectly that it was the lack of this power which made Arnott
so brutally indifferent to her disapproval.
When she lodged her complaint he flew into a rage. It was at night
when, Blanche having retired, they were alone together in the
drawing-room. Arnott had been out of the room when Blanche left it; he
was frequently absent from the room about that hour; Pamela knew quite
well that he was in the habit of waylaying the girl on the stairs. When
he entered, carrying the glass of whisky which was the ostensible reason
for his absence, she met him with the announcement that she intended to
part with Blanche and revert to the system of a coloured nurse for the
children.
"What for?" he demanded, and reddened awkwardly.
Pamela regarded him steadily.
"I do not think it wise to have her in the house," she answered. "You
don't need to ask my reason. You are quite aware why I consider her an
unfit companion for my children."
"Look here!" he said. He placed the glass he carried on a table, and
approached the sofa on which she was seated, and stood leaning against
the head of it, looking at her angrily. "You're fond of taking that
tone lately. I don't like it. What the devil do you mean by your
insinuations?"
"Need we discuss," she said, "what is so flagrant and abominable? You
know what I mean. You have given me every occasion lately for
distrusting you."
"I suppose you are jealous?" he said. "Good Lord!"
He tapped the floor irritably with his foot, and eyed her for a second
or so in silence. Then he leaned suddenly towards her.
"Suppose I insist on her remaining?" he asked, his face on a level with
hers. "Suppose I put my foot down? ... You've no right to object."
Pamela's expression froze as she stared bade into his angry eyes. Not
at once did she grasp the magnitude of the insult he flung at her; as
his meaning broke fully upon her, she whitened to the lips.