The Black Forge Mills : $b or, Up the King's highway
John Stuart Mill · en
"Oh, Ray!" she exclaimed, almost in alarm, "I have already battled
with that temptation, and won the victory. Don't bring it up again, or
persuade yourself it is God's will. You have not mistaken your life's
work. Those heathen lands are calling you. God is saying in tones
you cannot mistake, 'Obey the call.' I know it. Why he should have
prevented me from going with you, I cannot tell. It may be I am not
fitted for the work. It may be we loved each other too well, and he
wants to teach us to love him first and most of all. I do not question
his wisdom. I cannot understand, but I trust him. Don't think my love
for you has in any wise diminished. Never were you so dear to me.
Death would be a trifle beside this living separation from you; but he
has made this duty, and for his sake I can drink the cup. 'Though he
slay me, yet will I trust him.'" A look of calm resignation had settled
on her face; you could see she suffered, yet her heart was at peace;
for when the human will has lost itself in the divine will, the soul is
always at rest.
"You are braver than I," murmured Ray, kissing her passionately, and
then he hastened from the room.
Putting on his hat, he started off at a brisk walk for the hills. He
felt he must have air and space for this great struggle with himself.
His struggle was not over his going to the foreign field. He admitted
that was duty; but might he not put off that going for a year, and
then Daisy might be able to go with him? This seemed plausible, for it
coincided with his own wishes. Might not God have purposely delayed
their going so that they would have more time to study the language of
the people to whom they were assigned? Why had he not thought of this
before? The more he dwelt upon it, and weighed the reasons for such
a delay, the more convinced he was that he had now solved the great
purpose of God's unexpected providence. He felt sure of it when, after
a long tramp, he came around by the office for his mail. A letter was
there from Mr. Grafton, of Easton, asking him to supply, for a Sunday
or two, the church which he had been accustomed to attend during his
academic days. This church had had a marvelous growth during the years
he had been away from there. A large and beautiful house of worship, a
vigorous church membership, and an ample salary, were the inducements
it offered to the coming pastor; and Mr. Grafton had added: "I am
instructed by our church committee to say that if you, on visiting us,
should care to enter into a permanent relation with us, such a course
will be most satisfactory to the church." Ray read the letter through,
and then hastened back to the cottage. Finding Daisy, he poured forth
in glowing language his convictions, and, reading the letter to her, he
asked:
"Was ever anything plainer? Here, without the asking, has God appointed
my work; you can now become my wife, and together we will toil at
Easton, until God opens the way for our going to the foreign field."