The Black Forge Mills : $b or, Up the King's highway — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Black Forge Mills : $b or, Up the King's highway
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Still, had not the changes in the lad been very great--as great perhaps
as they could reasonably expect? There were many scholars in the First
Church school better favored than this poor lad, and with the best of
home influences, and yet there had not been so marked changes in them
as in him. Why be discouraged? Rather, why not be profoundly encouraged
at the sure manifestations of God's presence with that boy? Now, Mr.
Carleton, sensible fellow that he was, knew all this, and had it been
any one but himself who was so dejected, he would have thought of it,
and with triumph manifest in his tones, he would have called their
attention to it, and with them have thanked God for it. As it was, he
just bowed there on his hands troubled in spirit, and cried out, "How
long, Lord? Wilt thou hide thyself forever?"
He arose after a time and went to the window, looking out upon the rain
as it drove itself heavily against the panes.
"Here it is the night for our prayer meeting, and I'd like to know how
many will be out in such a storm as this," he muttered, half aloud. "A
mere handful in that little back room, when I was counting on so great
a number."
"In other words, Rev. Ralph Carleton thinks he could have arranged
the weather better than his Lord, and because it does not suit him he
must needs find fault, and be woefully put out about it," said a voice
behind him.
He turned and looked gravely at his wife, who had entered in time
to hear his complaint, and who now looked up, half amused and half
seriously, into his face.
"The rebuke was needed, Mary," he at last said, "and may the dear
Master forgive my want of faith." Then drawing her down on the lounge
beside him, he poured into her sympathizing ears the whole story of his
dejectedness. She listened attentively until he had finished, and then,
with mirth dancing in her eyes, though her words were grave enough,
repeated almost his own utterances to one of his members the evening
before. With his own gesture and emphasis, she pointed out the success
of the mission, the great changes in Ray Branford, and other marked
evidences of God's blessing upon the home church, and closed with the
words, "Physician, heal thyself."
He heard her through without a comment; then, dropping on his knees,
he drew her down beside him, and begged God's forgiveness for his want
of courage and faith, for his desire to have things his own, and not
God's way, and thanked him for the true helper and sympathizer he had
given him in his wife. He prayed that there might be given to them both
fuller grace, greater power, and more submissive wills to toil on God's
time and in God's way for the extension of his kingdom on the earth. He
arose from his knees, saying, "There, Mary, I will go back to my work,
and even if I have but one out to-night besides myself, they shall
have the best spiritual food I can give them."