I do not believe any man could ever have hoped for a finer task than
mine. I, who have often considered life not worth living, congratulated
myself on this undertaking in which I should have the opportunity of
creating my masterpiece. But before attempting the marvelous game from
which I was certain I was never to return, I wished to visit Venice
once again, I wished to draw again from the memorial and eternal
glories of these monuments the deep joy of such a life instilled in
stone as but rarely it is possible to instil in men. How often while
contemplating the architecture of St. Mark’s have I said to myself that
we have the right to make men die because we also know how to make them
live, but no right to destroy memories because we cannot build them
again. How could one reconstruct the glories of fourteen centuries of
domination?
With Bottecchia and the De Carli brothers I went to visit Venice for
the last time. A light naval motorboat carried us swiftly along the
short stretch of water separating the mainland from the city on the
sea. It was a clear day; the bluish surface of the basin of St. Mark
glittered under the first light zephyrs of May, and, stirred from time
to time by smarter puffs, the little waves broke crisply against the
sides and over the bow of our skiff. The symmetrical form of a swift
torpedo-boat, whose slender sides were moulded for speed like the
tendons of a grayhound, was outlined against the curved horizon flecked
with frail diaphanous clouds. Amethyst and cobalt, purple and gold
mingled in the rapid, ever-changing water swirls about us, intersecting
now and anon shattered into fragments that in turn recreate new gleams
of loveliness of color and new plays of light. The cold, viscid seaweed
stood erect in midstream eagerly awaiting the caress of a passing keel,
or hid its dark mass among the shadows of the Cyclopean walls from
which the swift foam of the eddies is hurled back. The spirals of a
slender column resembling a wistaria vine descended as far as the
odorous musk along the bank, while two gentle peacocks, reclining upon
marble, wound their sinuous necks about a byzantine image before which
wavered the flame of a votive lamp. Our gondola glided silently along
the tortuous canal of the dead city. Now and again we passed a heavy
stone railing before which dancing statues seemed to suspend the
invisible garlands of a distant minuet, or such a heavy iron gate as
pricks the pale sky with its pointed blades, or a cypress and a rose
bush closely bound together in a single embrace for centuries, with
their long, green foliage resting on the water. The Lombardesque eagles
curved under the cornice of Casa Vendramin uphold the festoons of stone
and on the porous, stained marble one can always read the phrase of the
Latin psalm “non nobis, non nobis.” Yet, even for us it is springtime;
even for us it is sweet to think it is springtime and that we shall be
able to die in springtime.