The ghosts of their ancestors — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The ghosts of their ancestors
John Stuart Mill · en
Now alone on the dark staircase she meditated on his words. When that
malignant crone, Gossip, started on her round, what would happen?
Suddenly the voice of her father adding up the indigo cargo fell upon her
ears. He would end their happiness; a man powerful enough to kill the
spirit of Easter in his home could do anything. Creeping through the
narrow passage she came to the great north balcony window. There she
paused and raised her eyes to the dome of the night. Long lines of stars
were strung across the meadows of heaven. The dials of the world seemed
suddenly stilled. Below the infinite peace a budding landscape sloped
gently into a placid sea. Myriads of little lights in humble cots blinked
an answer to the fires above. Leaning on the broad window-seat of
blackened Jersey oak she tried to descry his dwelling, but the tree-tops
shut it away.
A few hours before, he had asked her to be his wife, and she, a
Knickerbocker, had thrilled at his words. Like a tide the memory of his
love swept back to her. Then on its surges came the stupor of desolation.
The gates of Knickerbocker pride were strong. A second David might fail to
force them. All her dreams were fantasies, with no bearing upon reality.
All her hopes were sunbeams vanquished by one dark shadow. To her
distorted imagination her family seemed accursed. Every face bore some
mark of it, even the row of dim portraits in the room below. But, ah!
there was one, a face turned to the rafters of the attic, whose bright
eyes and red lips knew love untinctured by the dross of the world. In the
darkness it rose before her strangely insistent. As in a time-blurred
mirror she looked and saw herself, and the feeling, though uncanny, gave
her a sense of comfort.
A wind began to sigh in the garden. Through the boxwood maze and barren
urns it swept. Smiling Flora, sleeping Endymion, and all the fabulous
court that had stood there years before the coming of the Knickerbockers
grew more humanly colored as the moon passed behind a cloud. Since York
had become a queenly city and the wonder of the western world, mute and
peacefully passive they had watched the seasons come and go. Countless
lovers must have known them. She saw back into the springs, the flower
times. Sedan chairs and swaying post-chaises had borne these dainty lovers
all away. Oh, strange, sweet thought! She, too, would have to go--with
him.
Down by the pale and shivering elms the iron bar of the gate clicked. Dark
figures were entering the garden. The gods and goddesses faded before her
eyes. No one visited them on Easter eve. Her father did not keep the
season.
She steadied her knees on the slippery seat. The spray of arbutus she was
wearing over her heart cut her hands as she pressed closer to the pane.
"My aunts! they know!" she whispered to herself.