The golden windmill, and other stories — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The golden windmill, and other stories
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Mrs. Ward was curiously clear about that. She said she often thought
about Mr. Stelling sitting there after his day’s work. It must have been
very pleasant for him, and he seemed to miss this luxury in Dalston more
than anything. Once Ernie, in a friendly mood, had taken him into the
four-ale bar of “The Unicorn” at the corner of the Sheldrake Road, but
Mr. Stelling did not seem happy. Ernie acknowledged afterwards that it
had been an unfortunate evening. The bar had been rather crowded, and
there was a man and two women who had all been drinking too much. In any
case, Mr. Stelling had been obviously restless there, and he had said
afterwards:
“It is not that one wishes to drink only....”
And he had shaken his fat little head, and had never been known to visit
“The Unicorn” again.
Mr. Stelling died quite suddenly of some heart trouble, and Mrs. Ward
could not get it out of her head that his last illness was brought about
by his disappointment and grief in not being able to go and sit quietly
under the linden-trees after his day’s work and listen to a band.
“You know, my dear,” she said, “when you get accustomed to a thing, it’s
_bad_ for you to leave it off.”
When poor Mr. Stelling died, Mrs. Frow Stelling was heart-broken, and I
have reason to believe that Mrs. Ward went in and wept with her, and in
their dumb way they forged the chains of some desperate understanding.
When Mrs. Frow Stelling went back to Germany they promised to write to
each other. But they never did, and for a very good reason. As Mrs. Ward
said, she was “no scholard,” and as for Mrs. Frow Stelling, her English
was such a doubtful quantity, she probably never got beyond addressing
the envelope.
“That was three years ago,” said Mrs. Ward. “Them boys must be eighteen
and nineteen now.”
III
If I have intruded too greatly into the intimacy of Mrs. Ward’s life,
one of my excuses must be—not that I am “a scholard” but that I am in
any case able to read a simple English letter. I was in fact on several
occasions “requisitioned.” When Lily was not at home, some one had to
read Ernie’s letters out loud. The arrival of Ernie’s letters was always
an inspiring experience. I should perhaps be in the garden with Mrs.
Ward, when Tom would come hurrying out to the back, and call out:
“Mother! a letter from Ernie!”
And then there would be such excitement and commotion. The first thing
was always the hunt for Mrs. Ward’s spectacles. They were never where she
had put them. Tom would keep on turning the letter over in his hands, and
examining the postmark, and he would reiterate:
“Well, what did you do with them, mother?”