The Green Millennium — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Green Millennium
John Stuart Mill · en
Was he really crazy, he asked himself; was Lucky just a psycho's dream
cat, or had he somehow been tricked? Once again he tormentedly totted
up the evidence. Nobody but himself had admitted to seeing Lucky. And
there were so many other indications of hallucinations: that crazy
color, the silly food, his fleeting hunch that Lucky wasn't "really" a
cat, his suspiciously godlike elation and sense of power.
But those feelings of his were also the reason that Lucky _had_ to
exist. After what had happened today, Phil simply couldn't endure life
without Lucky, without those warm insights that had galvanized him this
afternoon and shut away all thoughts of his lost job, his loneliness,
his cowardice and frustrations. "Lucky," he whispered without knowing
he'd been going to, and the sick child sound of his voice frightened
him so that he fumbled in his pocket for the phonoscribe tape Swish
Jack Jones had given him. Puffing his cigarette hard so that it made a
hell red glow, he read the smoky words, "Dr. Anton Romadka. Top of The
Keep. Eight O'Clock."
He visualized the thin black shaft of The Keep, a luxurious
office-hotel, and thought of how few minutes it would take him to get
there. But then he suddenly crumpled the paper in his pocket and began
to pace. Going to Dr. Romadka would mean that he didn't really believe
in Lucky.
He thought of the sleeping pills but was afraid there weren't enough
left. He reached for a book he'd been reading, but the thought of its
stereotyped sadistic plot was unbearably boring. As a last resort he
turned on the radio again, voice and sight.
"... ravins the antichrist."
That phrase, together with the gaunt bucolic face, inevitably meant
that President Robert T. Barnes was telling his Fellow Americans about
Russia all over again.
"But there are sinners on this side of the polar battlegrounds," the
great midwestern father-image continued, swaying forward and arching
his bushy eyebrows. "Sinners in our midst, creatures of the fleshpots.
They have catered too long to the vilest desires and lusts." He shook a
finger and swayed once more. "I warn them that their time is at hand."
Phil reached for the knob (how often had Barnes made those futile, and
some said drunken, threats, when everyone knew his administration was
hand in glove with Fun Incorporated!) but he hesitated as an unfamiliar
and rather eerie note crept into the President's voice.
"Fellow Americans," Barnes almost whispered, wobbling a little from
side to side, "strange forces are abroad, insane thoughts, spirits of
the upper air like those which troubled ancient Babylon. Our minds are
being worked upon, it is the final testing time for--"
His momentary curiosity gone, Phil twisted the knob to silence and
darkness. Nevertheless, the President's rhetoric set the tone of his
next reverie. He did not pace now, but crouched back in the foam chair
wedged between the radio and bed.