The happiest time of their lives — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The happiest time of their lives
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The silence began to grow awkward. Mathilde put on her dressing-gown;
it was perfectly straight, and made her look like a little white
column. A glass of milk and some biscuits were waiting for her. She
pushed a chair near her fire for her mother, and herself remained
standing, with her glass of milk in her hand.
“Mama,” she said suddenly, “I suppose I’m what you’d call engaged.”
“O Mathilde! not to that boy who was here to-day?”
“Why not to him?”
“I know nothing about him.”
“I don’t know very much myself. Yes, it’s Pete Wayne. Pierson his name
is, but every one calls him Pete. How strange it was that I did not
even know his first name when you asked me!”
A single ray pierced Mrs. Farron’s depression: Vincent had known,
Vincent’s infallibility was confirmed. She did not know what to say.
She sat looking sadly, obliquely at the floor like a person who has
been aggrieved. She was wondering whether she should be to her daughter
a comrade or a ruler, a confederate or a policeman. Of course in all
probability the thing would be better stopped. But could this be
accomplished by immediate action, or could she invite confidences and
yet commit herself to nothing?
She raised her eyes.
“I do not approve of youthful marriages,” she said.
“O Mama! And you were only eighteen yourself.”
“That is why.”
Mathilde was frightened not only by the intense bitterness of her
mother’s tone, but also by the obvious fact that she was face to face
with the explanation of the separation of her parents. She had been
only nine years old at the time. She had loved her father, had found
him a better playfellow than her mother, had wept bitterly at parting
with him, and had missed him. And then gradually her mother, who had
before seemed like a beautiful, but remote, princess, had begun to make
of her an intimate and grown-up friend, to consult her and read with
her and arrange happinesses in her life, to win, to, if the truth must
be told, reconquer her. Perhaps even Adelaide would not have succeeded
so easily in effacing Severance’s image had not he himself so quickly
remarried. Mathilde went several times to stay with the new household
after Adelaide in secret, tearful conference with her father had been
forced to consent.