conduct deserved, while it was safer for himself and more conducive to
good health and a long life, than a personal attack upon them, seeing
that it was one against thirty-five.
But finding at length that this bloodless flogging even when accompanied
with awful language produced no other result than self-exhaustion and
violent perspiration, he resolved to kill himself without actually
dying—a simple paradox to the African mind. He brought out of his house
a long knife and a lighted torch, and carefully arranging a seat in
the middle of the street where all could witness the shedding of his
blood, he sharpened the knife, made his last speech, in which he told
his wives how he would haunt them after death, then raised the knife
above him, threw back his head, and pointed the knife towards his
breast. This tragical performance requires that at this interesting
moment some one, preferably a wife, should rush towards him in terrible
alarm and excitement and wrench the knife from his hand just in time to
save his life. This touching evidence of regard is a first measure of
reconciliation and is usually followed by a truce of hostilities. But
Abesula had made life so bitter for these women that their contempt was
unbounded and they desired no armistice. Not one of them moved to save
his life. He still held the knife above him, as if to say: “Is no one
going to interfere? Is it possible that you would allow a great man like
me to take his own life when you could so easily prevent it? At least
think of the trouble it will entail, the grave-digging, the burial, a
month of mourning, and perhaps charges of witchcraft.” Still no one
moved. Abesula suddenly resolved to sharpen his knife again so as to make
death quite certain. This being done he again raised it and pointed it
towards his heart. A native man said to Dr. Good: “Stop him! white man,
stop him! Take the knife from him!” And it may be that the women had
been expecting a white man to perform this obliging duty. But neither of
us moved. At last the knife descended, and with such terrible force that
it would have been driven into his heart and clean through his back if it
had not been that his arm was trembling with excessive determination, and
the descending knife, missing aim, struck the ground, penetrating nearly
to the hilt. Poor Abesula, inconsolable at finding himself still alive,
and feeling that his dignity, if not his life, was gone forever, rose
from the ground and sneaked away. But he cast a baleful look backward, as
if to say, “For two beads I’d destroy this world and make another where
great men could be appreciated. As for you black creatures, you don’t
know a great man when you see him.”
Later that night when all had retired to sleep, Dr. Good and I were still
discussing polygamy, that some white people assert is right and necessary
for Africa.