The Lady of the Ice: A Novel — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Lady of the Ice: A Novel
John Stuart Mill · en
He felt the full terror of his doom, but did not think of trying to
evade it. He was bound. His word was given. He considered it
irrevocable. Flight? He thought no more of that than he thought of
committing a murder. He would actually have given all that he had, and
more too, for the sake of getting rid of the widow; but he would not be
what he considered a sneak, even for that.
There was, therefore, no help for it. He was doomed. Tuesday! June
20th! St. Malachi's! Old Fletcher! Launched into matrimony! Hence his
despair.
During the intervening days I did not see him. I did not visit him, and
he did not come near me. Much as I sympathized with him in his woes, I
knew that I could do nothing and say nothing. Besides, I had my own
troubles. Every time I went to O'Halloran's, Marion's shyness, and
reserve, and timidity, grew more marked. Every time that I came home, I
kept bothering myself as to the possible cause of all this, and
tormented myself as to the reason of such a change in her.
One day I called at the Bertons'. I didn't see Louie. I asked after
her, and they told me she was not well. I hoped it was nothing serious,
and felt relieved at learning that it was nothing but a "slight cold."
I understood that. Poor Louie! Poor Jack! Would that "slight cold" grow
worse, or would she get over it in time? She did not seem to be of a
morbid, moping nature. There was every reason to hope that such a one
as she was would surmount it. And yet it was hard to say. It is often
these very natures--buoyant, robust, healthy, straightforward--which
feel the most. They are not impressible. They are not touched by every
new emotion. And so it sometimes happens that, when they do feel, the
feeling lasts forever.
Tuesday, at last, came--the 20th--the fated day!
At about eleven o'clock I entered Jack's room, prepared to act my part
and stand by his side in that supreme moment of fate.
Jack was lying on the sofa, as I came in. He rose and pressed my hand
in silence. I said nothing, but took my seat in an easy-chair. Jack was
arrayed for the ceremony in all respects, except his coat, instead of
which garment he wore a dressing-gown. He was smoking vigorously. His
face was very pale, and, from time to time, a heavy sigh escaped him.