The Lady of the Ice: A Novel — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Lady of the Ice: A Novel
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I was very forcibly struck by the strong resemblance which there was
between Jack, on the present occasion, and a condemned prisoner before
his execution. So strong was this, that, somehow, as I sat there in
silence, a vague idea came into my head that Jack was actually going to
be hanged; and, before I knew where my thoughts were leading me, I
began to think, in a misty way, of the propriety of calling in a
clergyman to administer ghostly consolation to the poor condemned in
his last moments. It was only with an effort that I was able to get rid
of this idea, and come back from this foolish, yet not unnatural fancy,
to the reality of the present situation. There was every reason,
indeed, for such a momentary misconception. The sadness, the silence,
the gloom, all suggested some prison cell; and Jack, prostrate,
stricken, miserable, mute, and despairing, could not fail to suggest
the doomed victim.
After a time Jack rose, and, going to the sideboard, offered me
something to drink. I declined. Whereupon he poured out a tumblerful of
raw brandy and hastily swallowed it. As he had done that very same
thing before, I began to think that he was going a little too far.
"See here, old boy," said I, "arn't you a little reckless? That sort of
thing isn't exactly the best kind of preparation for the event--is it?"
"What?--this?" said Jack, holding up the empty tumbler, with a gloomy
glance toward me; "oh, its nothing. I've been drenching myself with
brandy this last week. It's the only thing I can do. The worst of it
is, it don't have much effect now. I have to drink too much of it
before I can bring myself into a proper state of calm."
"Calm!" said I, "calm! I tell you what it is, old chap, you'll find
it'll be any thing but calm. You'll have delirium tremens before the
week's out, at this rate."
"Delirium tremens?" said Jack, with a faint, cynical laugh. "No go, my
boy--too late. Not time now. If it had only come yesterday, I might
have had a reprieve. But it didn't come. And so I have only a
tremendous headache. I've less than an hour, and can't get it up in
that time. Let me have my swing, old man. I'd do as much for you."
And, saying this, he drank off a half tumbler more.
"There," said he, going back to the sofa. "That's better. I feel more
able to go through with it. It takes a good lot now, though, to get a
fellow's courage up."
After this, Jack again relapsed into silence, which I ventured to
interrupt with a few questions as to the nature of the coming ceremony.
Jack's answers were short, reluctant, and dragged from him piecemeal.
It was a thing which he had to face in a very short time, and any other
subject was preferable as a theme for conversation.
"Will there be much of a crowd?"
"Oh, no."
"You didn't invite any."
"Me? invite any? Good Lord! I should think not!"
"Perhaps she has?"
"Oh, no; she said she wouldn't."
"Well, I dare say the town, by this time, has got wind of it, and the
church'll be full."