The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories
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Side by side with these ominous discolorations, however, were growing
patches of tender green moss; and thick tufts of grass bent gracefully
over the heavy rim of the wheel, where it impended above the rushing
water. A delicate vine of convolvulus had become rooted somewhere
above, and had wreathed itself in and out among the rigid spokes. It
seemed as though Nature were striving, with but partial success, to win
back to her own fresh bosom this gaunt relic of man's handiwork. With
but partial success; for all the magic of her beautiful adornments
could not annul the odd feeling of repulsion--or was it perverted
fascination?--with which this sullen wheel began to affect me. I
know not how to interpret, even to my own mind, the nature of this
impression. Solitary as I stood there, I yet could not rid myself of
the notion that I was not (in the ordinary sense of the word) alone.
That wheel--there was something about it more than belongs to mere
negative brute matter. It seemed not devoid of a low and evil form
of consciousness--almost of personality. I recognised the morbid
extravagance of the idea at the same time that I was powerless to do
away with it. Everyone, probably, has had some similar experience; and
the fact that reason cannot account for the sensation does not lessen
its impressiveness.
The wheel had caught my eye from the first, and, as it were, commanded
my main attention. But after a few minutes I looked away from it, not
without a conscious effort of will, and gave a closer examination to
other objects in the glen. The mill to which the wheel appertained
stood on the right bank of the stream, but was now little more than
a heap of ruins. The wooden part was wholly decayed, and the stone
foundations were displaced and shattered, and covered with weeds
and rubbish. A few paces farther back, huddled against the southern
acclivity of the gorge, was the carcase of a dismantled and deserted
house. The roof had fallen in, the window frames and sashes were gone,
and the lifeless rooms stood open to the air. The stone walls had
formerly been overlaid with plaster, but this had mostly fallen away,
and what patches remained here and there were stained with greenish
mould. A tall clump of barberry bushes was growing just within the
threshold of the doorway, as if to dispute the entrance of any chance
intruder; and a vigorous plantation of some species of yellow flowers
was waving above the remains of the chimney. The spectacle was in every
respect forlorn and depressing; no barren desert, that had never been
trodden by the foot of man, could have so repelled and saddened the
observer. Man feels no sympathy for what has never known life; but
that which once has lived and now is dead, yet retains in death some
semblance of its extinct vitality,--that it is which brings the true
feeling of desolation home to us.