The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories
John Stuart Mill · en
"That which has existed in an atmosphere of revenge, hatred, and
despair, becomes at last impregnated with a malignant intelligence
derived from them; an intelligence both devilish in itself and able to
endow you with its own deformity. And if you hold not aloof from it, you
shall surely be destroyed--in soul, if not in body likewise!"
"But do we feel this influence unless aware beforehand that it is
there?"
"Fix your thought constantly upon yonder wheel," was the reply, "and
mark if it does not answer you."
Still with my hands clasped across my eyes, I concentrated my mind
as directed, and presently felt my veins crawl with a slow chill of
dismay--a chill which deprived me of control over my faculties, while
awakening them to unnatural activity. That the wheel had a conscious
personality, instinct with evil, seemed no longer open to doubt. Now the
plash and gurgle of the water changed to the stealthy drip of blood;
and I shrank from the breeze that moved my hair as from a pestilential
breath. Was I going mad too? My will seemed to falter; a tremor which I
could not repress passed through me from head to foot.
"Aye, you feel it," murmured the voice again. "You are answered!"
By a determined effort I regained command of myself. Perhaps it was none
too soon. Nothing is easier than to indulge this morbid vein, and few
indulgences, I believe, are more perilous. With my change of mood came a
change of tone; I cast aside the hysteric style, and adopted one more
brusque and matter-of-fact, to which the reaction from sentimentality
may have added a touch of asperity.
"Come, come!" I said. "We are overdoing this folly. I know well enough
what place this is; Mr. Poyntz began to tell me about it this afternoon.
An amusing story--all about the Laughing Mill, and the fellow who was
drowned, and the nymph of the pearl-shell necklace. You see, I know what
I am talking about! But the tale broke off in the middle; perhaps you
can finish it?"
"It is you who must finish it!" returned the other. "But I want your
sympathy; so let me tell my part."
"Do so," said I, "by all means. When I know you better, I shall be
better able to sympathise with you. As to my finishing the story, I
think I'm more likely to succeed as a listener than as a narrator;
however, if it must be so, I'll give it the best ending I can. And I do
sympathise with you already," I added, after a pause, in a less flippant
tone. "I am a man, and I believe in human brotherhood."