The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories
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Before he could finish uttering the thought that was in his heart, the
words were drowned in a throbbing yell as of demoniac laughter. The
evil spirit of the wheel, after biding its time so long in silence,
had seemingly leapt exultingly into life at the first premonition of
meditated wrong. Swanhilda shuddered, and hid her face in her hands.
David thrust his head out of the mill-room window, and saw Gloam make
a gesture of rage and defiance.
"Aha!" he muttered to himself, "so the children's games are over, are
they? Can it be the devil's game that my beloved brother thinks of
beginning now?"
* * * * *
Another year passed, and again a man and a woman were sitting together
on the bench beside the mill. It was night, and a few stars twinkled
between the rifts of cloud overhead. The gorge was so dark that the
mill-stream gurgled past invisibly, save where occasionally a rising
eddy caught the dim starlight. The tall wheel, motionless now, and only
discernible as a blacker imprint on the darkness, lurked like a secret
enemy in ambush. The man's arm was clasped round the woman's waist; her
head rested on his shoulder, and her soft fingers were playing with the
pearl-shell necklace that encircled her neck. They spoke together in
whispers, as though fearful of being overheard.
"You silly little goose!" the man said; "a few months ago nothing would
make you happy but learning what love was; and now you have found out
you must ever be whimpering and paling. Why, what are you afraid of?"
"You know I am happy in loving you, David," was the tremulous answer;
"but must lovers always hide their love, and pretend before others that
they do not feel it? When I first dreamed of love, it seemed to me like
the blue sky and the sunshine, and the songs of birds; but our love is
secret and silent, like the night."
"Pooh! nonsense, and so much the better! Our love is nobody's business
but our own, my lass. You wouldn't have Gloam find it out, would you,
and part us? What! have you forgotten the fit he was in at my teaching
you English a year ago? He wants you all to himself, the old miser! You
weren't happier with him than you have been with me, were you?"
"Oh, David," whispered the girl, clinging to him, "that was so
different! I was happy, then, like a wave on the beach in summer. I
had no deep thoughts, and my heart never beat as you make it beat, and
my breath never came in long sighs as it does often now. Gloam used to
say that he had brought me back from death to life; but it was not so.
I lived first when I loved you. And the old happiness was not real
happiness, for there was no sadness in it; it never made me cry, as
this does."
He drew her to him with a little laugh. "When you've lived a little more
and got used to it, you'll stop sighing and crying, and be as bright and
saucy as you were with Gloam. But you won't want to tell him ... eh?"