The Lily and the Cross: A Tale of Acadia — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Lily and the Cross: A Tale of Acadia
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"It is different with you," said Claude; "you are the centre of
universal admiration, and everybody pays you attention. The time
never passes heavily with you; but think of me--miserable, obscure,
friendless!"
Mimi turned, and looked at him with such a piteous face that Claude
stopped short. Her eyes were fixed on his with tender melancholy and
reproach. They were filled with tears.
"And do you really believe that?" she said--"that the time never
passes heavily with me? It has been a sad time ever since I came
here. Think how short a time it is since poor, dear papa left me! Do
you think I can have the heart for much enjoyment?"
"Forgive me," said Claude, deeply moved; "I had forgotten; I did not
think what I was saying; I was too selfish."
"That is true," said Mimi. "While you were suffering from loneliness,
you should have thought that I, too, was suffering, even in the
midst of the crowd. But what are they all to me? They are all
strangers. It is my friends that I want to see; and you are away, and
the good Père Michel never comes!"
"Were you lonely on the road?" asked Claude.
"Never," said Mimi, innocently, "after you came."
As she said this, a flush passed over her lovely face, and she looked
away confused. Claude seized her hand, and pressed it to his lips.
They then walked on in silence for some time. At last Claude spoke
again.
"The ship will not leave for six weeks. If I were alone, I think I
should go back to Boston. But if you go to France, I shall go, too.
Have you ever thought of what you will do when you get there?"
"I suppose I shall have to go to France," said Mimi; "but why should
you think of going to Boston? Are you not going on your family
business?"
"I am not," said Claude. "I am only going because you are going. As
to my family business, I have forgotten all about it; and, indeed, I
very much doubt whether I could do anything at all. I do not even
know how I am to begin. But I wish to see you safe and happy among
your friends."
Mimi looked at him in sad surprise.
"I do not know whether I have any friends or not," said she. "I have
only one relative, whom I have never seen. I had intended to go to
her. I do not know what I shall do. If this aunt is willing to take
me, I shall live with her; but she is not very rich, and I may be a
burden."
"A burden!" said Claude; "that is impossible! And besides, such a
great heiress as you will be welcome wherever you go."
He spoke this with a touch of bitterness in his voice; for Mimi's
supposed possessions seemed to him to be the chief barrier between
himself and her.