The Living Link: A Novel — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Living Link: A Novel
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Edith could bear no more. Every one of these words was a fresh stab to
her remorseful heart--every tone showed to her the depth of love that
lay in that father's heart, and revealed to her the suffering that she
must have caused. It was too much; and with a deep groan she sank away
from his arms upon the floor. She clasped his knees--she did not dare to
look up. She wished only to be a suppliant. He himself had prophesied
this. His terrible warnings sounded even now in her ears. She had only
one thought--to humble herself in the dust before that injured father.
Dalton tried to raise her up.
“My darling!” he cried, “my child! you must not--you will break my
heart!”
“Oh,” moaned Edith, “if it is not already broken, how can you ever
forgive me?--how can you call me your child?”
“My child! my child!” said Dalton. “It was for you that I lived. If it
had not been for the thought of you, I should have died long since. It
was for your sake that I came home. It is for you only that I live now.
There is nothing for me to forgive. Look up at me. Let me see your
darling face. Let me hear you say one word--only one word--the word that
I have hungered and thirsted to hear. Call me father.”
“Father! oh, father! dear father!” burst forth Edith, clinging to him
with convulsive energy, and weeping bitterly.
“Oh, my darling!” said Dalton, “I was to blame. How could you have borne
what I expected you to bear, when I would not give you my confidence? Do
not let us speak of forgiveness. You loved your father all the time, and
you thought that I was his enemy and yours.”
Gradually Edith became calmer, and her calmness was increased by the
discovery that her father was painfully weak and exhausted. He had been
overwhelmed by the emotions which this interview had called forth. He
now sat gazing at her with speechless love, holding her hands in his,
but his breath came and went rapidly, and there was a feverish
tremulousness in his voice and a flush on his pale cheeks which alarmed
her. She tried to lessen his agitation by talking about her own
prospects, but Dalton did not wish to.
“Not now, daughter,” he said. “I will hear it all some other time. I am
too weary, Let me only look at your dear face, and hear you call me by
that sweet name, and feel my child's hands in mine. That will be bliss
enough for this day. Another time we will speak about the--the situation
that you are in.”