The man she hated : $b or, Won by strategy — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The man she hated : $b or, Won by strategy
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“For how else could that wretch ever have known so quickly of her
absence?” she thought.
Mrs. Burns stayed with her again that night, but Fair feared to tell
the kind soul of her secret dread; consequently she had no one to
accompany her to work, and she stayed at home several days through
sheer terror of venturing out.
Then a new danger began to menace her. The grim fiend, Hunger, was at
her door.
Always subsisting on meager fare, the two girls had been wont to
purchase their eatables day by day, as they returned from work. Fair
had had but a few pennies in her purse when Sadie left, and all
these were gone now. She had sent the little Burns girl out every
day to purchase bread for her, but now pennies and bread were alike
exhausted. Fair had been without food two days.
If she had made known her wretched condition to the people in the
house, they would have divided their scanty portion with the unhappy
orphan girl; but her lips were sealed. She had some of her dead
mother’s unconquerable pride. She could not beg.
“I must perish miserably, like a rat in a trap!” she exclaimed, in
anguish of spirit; and so wretched and despondent had she become that
she would have welcomed death as a relief from her deplorable condition.
Oh, those wretched days, those sleepless nights, and that knawing
hunger--how they wore on the fresh young beauty, paling and thinning it
to exquisite delicacy. The large eyes grew dim and wide, and the tears
were always trembling on the exquisitely fringed lashes. She wrote much
in the little journal those days, and the thoughts she inscribed there
were so full of sadness that they must have brought tears to “eyes
unused to weep.”
It was on the third day since she had tasted food that her landlady
came up to speak to her, and Fair’s pale face grew paler yet as she
noticed the hard light in the woman’s face and the set line of her lips.
“Miss Fielding, I’ve heard a curious tale about you, and I want to know
the truth,” she said shortly. “It seems like the man that was in your
room that night was your husband, after all.”
“Who has been telling you these tales about me, Mrs. Levy?” Fair asked
falteringly.
“I had it from one of your companions at the shroud factory--a tall,
light-complected young lady, with blue eyes. She called to see why you
didn’t come to work, and when I told her about that night and the man
in your room, she ups with the whole story.”
“Belva Platt!” Fair exclaimed bitterly.
“Yes,” said Mrs. Levy, “that was her name. So you know her, and it’s
true? Well, really, Miss Fielding, I had a better opinion of you. Jest
to think of a young one like you marrying for money and then cutting
out and deserting the man because he wasn’t as rich as you thought. And
then to pretend like you did that night--it was a shame.”
“If you will let me explain, Mrs. Levy,” Fair pleaded; but the woman
was evidently prejudiced against her by the artful Belva, and all the
poor girl could say met with small belief or respect.