Before I went to bed that night I opened the book which Mr. Pollard had
given me, in the expectation of finding a letter in it, or, at least,
some writing on the title-page or the blank pages of the book. But I
was disappointed in both regards. With the exception of some minute
pencil-marks scattered here and there along the text--indications,
doubtless, of favorite passages--I perceived nothing in the volume to
account for the extreme earnestness with which he had presented it.
XX.
THE OLD MILL.
Whither wilt thou lead me? speak; I'll go no farther.
--HAMLET.
I did not sleep well that night, but this did not prevent me from
beginning work early in the morning. The sermon I had been interrupted
in the afternoon before, had to be completed that day; and I was hard
at work upon it when there came a knock at my study-door. I arose with
any thing but alacrity and opened it. Dwight Pollard stood before me.
It was a surprise that called up a flush to my cheeks; but daylight was
shining upon this interview, and I knew none of those sensations which
had unnerved me the night before. I was simply on my guard, and saw him
seat himself in my own chair, without any other feeling than that of
curiosity as to the nature of his errand. He likewise was extremely
self-possessed, and looked at me calmly for some instants before
speaking.
"Last night," he began, "you refused a request which my mother made of
you."
I bowed.
"It was a mistake," he continued. "The paper which my father gave you
cannot be one which he in his right senses would wish seen by the
public. You should have trusted my mother, who knew my father much
better than you did."
"It was not a matter of trust," I protest. "A document had been given
me by I a dying man, with an injunction to put it into certain hands. I
had no choice but to fulfil his wishes in this regard. Your mother
herself would have despised me if I had yielded to her importunities
and left it behind me."
"My mother," he commenced.
"Your mother is your mother," I put in. "Let us have respect for her
widowhood, and leave her out of this conversation."
He looked at me closely, and I understood his glance.
"I cannot return you your father's will," I declared, firmly.
He held my glance with his.
"Have you it still?" he asked.
"I cannot return it to you," I repeated.