He looked at me a moment before replying and his
lip took a sinister curl. 'I have,' he said. 'And what does it
contain?' 'What we wish,' he answered, with a strange emphasis. I was
too much astonished to speak. I could not believe this to be true, and
when, Mr. Barrows having been released, we had all returned home, I
asked to see the will and judge for myself. But Guy refused to show it.
'We are going to return it,' he said, and said no more. Nor would my
mother give me any further information. Either I had betrayed myself in
the look I gave Guy on his return to the mill, or else some underlying
regard for my feelings had constrained her to spare me actual
participance in a fraud. At all events, I did not know the truth till
the real will had been destroyed and the substituted one placed in Mr.
Nicholls' hands, and then it was told to me in a way to confound my
sense of right and make me think it would be better to let matters
proceed to this false issue, than by a public acknowledgment of the
facts, bring down upon me and mine the very disgrace from which I had
been so desirous of escaping. I was caught in the toils you see, and
though it would have been a man's part to have broken through every
constraint and proclaimed myself once and for all on the side of right,
I had nothing whereby to show what the last wishes of my father had
been, and could only say what would ruin us without benefiting the
direct object of those wishes. I therefore kept their counsel and my
own; stilling my conscience when it spoke too loud, by an inward
promise to be not only a friend to my older brother's child, but to
part with the bulk of my fortune to her. That she would need my
friendship I felt, as the letter I wrote to her shows, but that such
evil would come upon her as did, or that my delay to see her would make
it impossible for me ever to behold her in this world, I had yet too
much filial regard to imagine. I was consequently overwhelmed by the
news of her death, and though I never knew the whole truth till now, I
was conscious of a distrust so great that from that day to the worser
ones which followed, I never looked at those nearest to me without a
feeling of deep separation such as is only made by some dark and secret
crime. I was alone, or so I felt, and was gradually becoming morbid
from a continual brooding on this subject, when the great blow fell
which changed whatever vague distress I felt into an active remorse and
positive fear. Mr. Barrows was found dead, drowned in the very vat into
which my brother had forced him a month or so before. What did it mean?
It was impossible for me to guess the truth, but I could not but
recognize the fact that we were more or less responsible for his death;
that the frenzy which had doubtless led to this tragedy was the outcome
of the strain which had been put upon his nerves, and though personally
I had had nothing to do with placing him in the vat, I was certainly