Did I believe him? Was he upon trial, then, and was he willing I should
see he understood it? No, no, that could not be; yet why asseverate so
emphatically a fact of which no man could be sure unless he had been
present at the scene of death, or at least known more of the
circumstances attending it than was compatible with the perfect
ignorance which all men professed to have of them. Did he not see that
such words were calculated to awaken suspicion, and that it would be
harder, after such a question, to believe he spoke from simple
conviction, than from a desire to lead captive the will of a woman
whose intuitions, his troubled conscience told him, were to be feared?
Rising, as an intimation that the conversation was fast becoming
insupportable to me, I confronted him with my proudest look.
"You must excuse me," said I, "if I do not linger to discuss a matter
whose consequences just now are more important to us than the fact
itself. While your mother lies insensible I cannot rest comfortable
away from her side. You will therefore allow me to return to her."
"In a moment," he replied. "There are one or two questions it would
please me to have you answer first." And his manner took on a charm
that robbed his words of all peremptoriness, and made it difficult, if
not impossible, for me to move. "You have spoken of Miss Reynolds," he
resumed; "have told me that she declared upon her dying bed that the
relations between Mr. Barrows and herself were very happy. Were you
with her then? Did you know her well?"
"She was my room-mate," I returned.
It was a blow; I saw it, though not a muscle of his face quivered. He
had not expected to hear that I was upon terms of intimacy with her.
"I loved her," I went on, with a sense of cruel pleasure that must have
sprung from the inward necessity I felt to struggle with this strong
nature. "The proof that she loved me lies in the fact that she has made
me heir to all her little savings. We were friends," I added, seeing he
was not yet under sufficient control to speak.
"I see," he now said, moving involuntarily between me and the door.
"And by friends you mean confidantes, I presume?"
"Perhaps," I answered, coolly, dropping my eyes.
His voice took a deeper tone; it was steel meeting steel, he saw.
"And she told you Mr. Barrows was happy?"
"That has been already discussed," said I.
"Miss Sterling"--I think I never heard such music in a human
voice--"you think me inquisitive, presuming, ungentlemanly, persistent,
perhaps. But I have a great wish to know the truth about this matter,
if only to secure myself from forming false impressions and wrongfully
influencing others by them. Bear with me, then, strangers though we
are, and if you feel you can trust me"--here he forced me to look at
him,--"let me hear, I pray, what reasons you have for declaring so
emphatically that Mr. Barrows did not commit suicide?"