That day was a marked one in my life. It was not only the longest I
have ever known, but it was by far the dreariest, and, if I may use the
word in this connection, the most unearthly. Indeed, I cannot think of
it to this day without a shudder; its effect being much the same upon
my memory as that of a vigil in some underground tomb, where each
moment was emphasized with horror lest the dead lying before me might
stir beneath their cerements and wake. The continual presence of one or
both of the brothers at my side did not tend to alleviate the dread
which the silence, the constant suspense, the cold gloom of the ever
dimly-lighted chamber were calculated to arouse; for the atmosphere of
unreality and gloom was upon them too, and, saving the quick, short
sigh that escaped from their lips now and then, neither of them spoke
nor relaxed for an instant from that strain of painful attention which
had for its focus their mother's stony face. Mrs. Harrington, who, in
her youthful freshness and dimpled beauty, might have relieved the
universal sombreness of the scene, was not in the room all day; but
whether this was on account of her inability to confront sickness and
trouble, or whether it was the result of the wishes of her brothers, I
have never been able to decide; probably the latter, for, though she
was a woman of frivolous mind, she had a due sense of the proprieties,
and was never known to violate them except under the stress of another
will more powerful than her own.
At last, as the day waned, and what light there was gradually vanished
from the shadowy chamber, Guy made a movement of discouragement, and,
rising from his place, approached his brother, dropped a word in his
ear, and quietly left the room. The relief I felt was instantaneous. It
was like having one coil of an oppressive nightmare released from my
breast. Dwight, on the contrary, who had sat like a statue ever since
the room began to darken, showed no evidence of being influenced by
this change, and, convinced that any movement towards a more cheerful
order of things must come from me, I rose, and, without consulting his
wishes, dropped the curtains and lighted the lamp. The instant I had
done so I saw why he was so silent and immovable. Overcome by fatigue,
and possibly by a long strain of suppressed emotion, he had fallen
asleep, and, ignorant of the fact that Guy had left the room, slumbered
as peacefully as if no break had occurred in the mysterious watch they
had hitherto so uninterruptedly maintained over their mother and me.