The room to which he conducted me was on the first floor, and was
darkness itself when we entered. It was musty, too, and chill, as with
the memory of a past funeral and the premonition of a new one.
Even the light which he soon made did not seem to be at home in the
spot, but wavered and flickered with faint gasps, as if it longed to
efface itself and leave the grand and solitary apartment to its wonted
atmosphere of cold reserve. By its feeble flame I noted but two
details: one was the portrait of Mrs. Pollard in her youth, and the
other was my own reflection in some distant mirror. The first filled me
with strange thoughts, the face was so wickedly powerful, if I may so
speak; handsome, but with that will beneath its beauty which, when
allied to selfishness, has produced the Lucretia Borgias and Catherine
de Medicis of the world.
The reflection of which I speak, dimly seen as it was, had, on the
contrary, a calming effect upon my mind. Weary as I undoubtedly was,
and pale if not haggard with the emotions I had experienced, there was
still something natural and alive in my image that recalled happier
scenes to my eyes, and gave me the necessary strength to confront the
possibilities of the present interview..
Mr. Pollard, who in his taciturn gloom seemed like the natural genius
of the spot, appeared to be struck by this same sensation also, for his
eyes wandered more than once to the mirror, before he summoned up
courage, or, perhaps, I should say, before he took the determination to
look me in the face and open the conversation. When he did, it was
curious to note the strife of expression between his eye and lip: the
one hard, cold, and unyielding; the other deprecating in its half-smile
and falsely gentle, as if the mind that controlled it was even then
divided between its wish to subdue and the necessity it felt to win.
"Miss Sterling," so he began, "it would be only folly for me to speak
as if nothing had occurred but an ordinary and natural death. It would
be doing your good sense and womanly judgment but little honor, and
putting myself, or, rather, ourselves--for we children are but one in
this matter--in a position which would make any after-explanations
exceedingly difficult. For explanations can be given, and in a word;
for what has doubtless struck you as strange and terrible in my
mother's last hours,--explanations which I am sure you will be glad to
accept, as it is not natural for one so blooming in her womanliness to
wish to hamper her youth with dark thoughts, or to nurse suspicions
contrary to her own candid and noble nature."
He paused, but meeting with no response beyond a rather cool bow, the
strife between his eye and lip became more marked. He went on, however,
as if perfectly satisfied, his voice retaining its confident tone,
whatever the disturbance communicated to his inward nature.