He looked at her amazed; so did we.
"I must see it," she said, simply; and she herself took the first step
towards the mill.
There was no alternative but to follow. This we did in terror and pity,
for the look with which she led the way was not the look of any common
determination, and the power which seemed to force her feeble body on
upon its fearful errand was of that strained and unnatural order which
might at any moment desert her, and lay her a weak and helpless burden
at our feet.
"It must be dark by this time down there," objected the man she had
appealed to, as he stepped doubtfully forward.
But she did not seem to heed. Her eyes were fixed upon the ruined walls
before her, rising drear and blank against the pale-green evening sky.
"He could have had no errand here," I heard her murmur. "How then be
drowned here?--how? how?"
Alas! that was the mystery, dear heart, with which every mind was busy!
The door of the mill had fallen down and rotted away years before, so
we had no difficulty in entering. But upon crossing the threshold and
making for the steps that led below, we found that the growing twilight
was any thing but favorable to a speedy or even safe advance. For the
flooring was badly broken in places, and the stairs down which we had
to go were not only uneven, but strangely rickety and tottering.
But the sprite that led us paused for nothing, and long before I had
passed the first step she had reached the bottom one, and was groping
her way towards the single gleam of light that infused itself through
the otherwise pitchy darkness.
"Be careful, miss; you may fall into the vat yourself!" exclaimed more
than one voice behind her.
But she hurried on, her slight form showing like a spectre against the
dim gleam towards which she bent her way, till suddenly she paused and
we saw her standing with clasped hands, and bent head, looking down
into what? We could readily conjecture.
"She will throw herself in," whispered a voice; but as, profoundly
startled, I was about to hasten forward, she hurriedly turned and came
towards us.
"I have seen it," she quietly said, and glided by us, and up the
stairs, and out of the mill to where that still form lay in its ghostly
quietude upon the sodden grass.
For a moment she merely looked at it, then she knelt, and, oblivious to
the eyes bent pityingly upon her, kissed the brow and then the cheeks,
saying something which I could not hear, but which lent a look of
strange peace to her features, that were almost as pallid and set now
as his. Then she arose, and holding out her hand to me, was turning
away, when a word uttered by some one, I could not tell whom, stopped
her, and froze her, as it were, to the spot.
That word was _suicide!_
I think I see her yet, the pale-green twilight on her forehead, her
lips parted, and her eyes fixed in an incredulous stare.