"Constance, I would not have you think he was an absolutely perfect
man. He was too sensitively organized for that. A touch, a look that
was not in harmony with his thoughts, would make him turn pale at
times, and I have seen him put to such suffering by petty physical
causes, that I have sometimes wondered where his great soul got its
strength to carry him through the exigencies of his somewhat trying
calling. But whatever his weaknesses--and they were very few,--he was
conscientious in the extreme, and suffered agony where other men would
be affected but slightly. You can imagine his joy, then, over this
unexpected end to his long pain; and remembering that it is only a
month previous to the day set apart by us for our marriage, ask
yourself whether he would be likely to seek any means of death, let
alone such a horrible and lonesome one as that which has robbed us of
him to-day?"
"No!" I burst out, for she waited for my reply. "A thousand times, no,
no, no!"
"He has not been so well lately, and I have not seen as much of him as
usual; but that is because he had some literary work he wished to
finish before the wedding-day. Ah, it will never be finished now! and
our wedding-day is to-day! and the bride is almost ready. But!" she
suddenly exclaimed, "I must not go yet--not till you have said again
that he was no suicide. Tell me," she vehemently continued--"tell me
from your soul that you believe he is not answerable for his death!"
"I do!" I rejoined, alarmed and touched at once by the fire in her
cheek and eye.
"And that," she went, "you will hold to this opinion in the face of all
opposition! That, whatever attack men may make upon his memory, you
will uphold his honor and declare his innocence! Say you will be my
deputy in this, and I will love you even in my cold grave, and bless
you as perhaps only those who see the face of the Father can bless!"
"Ada!" I murmured, "Ada!"
"You will do this, will you not?" she persisted. "I can die knowing I
can trust you as I would myself."
I took her cold hand in mine and promised, though I felt how feeble
would be any power of mine to stop the tide of public opinion if once
it set in any definite direction.
"He had no enemies," she whispered; "but I would sooner believe he had,
than that he sought this fearful spot of his own accord."
And seemingly satisfied to have dropped this seed in my breast, she
tremblingly arose, and going for her writing-desk, brought it back and
laid it on the lounge by her side. "Go for Mrs. Gannon," she said.
Mrs. Gannon was our neighbor in the next room, a widow who earned her
livelihood by nursing the sick; and I was only too glad to have her
with me at this time, for my poor Ada's face was growing more and more
deathly, and I began to fear she had but prophesied the truth when she
said this was her wedding-day.
I was detained only a few minutes, but when I came back with Mrs.
Gannon, I found my room-mate writing.