The first thing to be done was undoubtedly to visit my old home and
interview its landlady. If nothing came of that, to hunt up the nurse,
Mrs. Gannon, whom, as you will remember, I had left in charge of my
poor Ada's remains when sudden duty in the shape of Dr. Farnham carried
me away to the bedside of Mrs. Pollard; and if this also came to
naught, to burst the bonds of secrecy which I had maintained, and by
taking this same Dr. Farnham into my confidence obtain at least an
adviser who would relieve me, if only partially, from the weight of
responsibility, which I now felt to be pressing rather too heavily upon
my strength.
But though I carried out this programme as far as seeking for and
procuring an interview with Mrs. Gannon at her place of nursing, I did
not succeed in obtaining the least clew to the fate of this
mysteriously lost letter. Neither of the women mentioned had seen it,
nor was it really believed by them to have been on the table when they
arranged the room after my Ada's peaceful death. Yet even to this they
could not swear, nor would the landlady admit but that it might still
have been lying there when they came to carry Ada away, though she
would say that it could not have been anywhere in view the next day,
for she had thoroughly cleaned and tidied up the room herself, and as
in doing this she had been obliged to shift every article off the table
on to the bed and back again, she must not only have seen, but handled
the letter twice; and this she was morally certain she did not do.
I was therefore in as great perplexity as ever, and was seriously
meditating a visit to Dr. Farnham, when I bethought me of making one
final experiment before resorting to this last and not altogether
welcome alternative.
This was to examine every thing which had been on the table, in the
hope of discovering in some out-of-the-way receptacle the missing
letter for which I had such need. To be sure it was an effort that
promised little, there having been but few articles on the table
capable of concealing even such a small object as this I was in search
of; but when one is at their wits' ends, they do not stop to discuss
probabilities, or even to weigh in too nice a scale the prospect of
success.
Recalling, therefore, just what had been on the table, I went to the
trunk in which these articles were packed, and laid them out one by one
on the floor. They were as follows: A work-basket of Ada's; a box of
writing-paper; a copy of _Harper's Magazine_; an atlas; and two volumes
of poetry, one belonging to Ada and one to me.