But wait! Where was I standing when I first became conscious of her
presence in the room? Why, in the window, of course. I remembered now
just how hot the afternoon sun looked to me as I stared at the white
walls of the cottage over the way. And she--where was she?--between me
and the table? Yes! She had, therefore, passed by the letter, and might
have picked it up, might even have opened it, and read it before the
spell of my revery was broken, and I turned to find her standing there
before my eyes. Her pallor, the evident distress under which she was
laboring, even the sudden pain which had attacked her heart, might thus
be accounted for, and what I had always supposed to be a purely
physical attack prove to be the result of a mental and moral shock.
But, no. Had she opened and read the letter it would have been found
there; or if not there, at least upon her person after death. Besides,
her whole conduct between the moment I faced her and that of the alarm
in the street below precluded the idea that any thing of importance to
her and her love had occurred to break her faith in the future and the
man to whose care she was pledged. Could I not remember the happy smile
which accompanied her offer of assistance and home to me? And was there
any thing but hope and trust in the tone with which she had designated
her lover as being the best and noblest man in town? No; if she had
read his communication and afterwards disposed of it in some way I did
not observe, then it was not of the nature I suspected; but an ordinary
letter, similar in character to others she had received, foretelling
nothing, and only valuable in the elucidation of the mystery before me
from the fact of its offering proof presumptive that he did not
anticipate death, or at all events did not meditate it.
An important enough fact to establish, certainly; but it was not the
fact in which I had come to believe, and so I found it difficult to
give it a place in my mind, or even to entertain the possibility of
Ada's having seen the letter at all. I preferred rather to indulge in
all sorts of wild conjectures, having the landlady, the servant, even
Dr. Farnham, at their base; and it was not till I was visited by some
mad thought of Rhoda Colwell's possible connivance in the disappearance
of this important bit of evidence, that I realized the enormity of my
selfish folly, and endeavored to put an end to its further indulgence
by preparing stoically for bed.
But sleep, which would have been so welcome, did not come; and after a
long and weary night, I arose in any thing but a refreshed state, to
meet the exigencies of what might possibly prove to be a most important
day.