The mill of silence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The mill of silence
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“It sounds more plausible than it is, I think,” said I, with frank
discourtesy. “The acts of one day may influence those of the next--or
interminably.”
“That’s your lookout; but they needn’t necessarily. With each new
birth comes a new capacity for looking at things in their right
proportions.”
“How far do you push your theory?”
“As far as you like. I’d have, all the world over, a daily revival of
systems.”
“Government--law?”
“Certainly. Of everything.”
“Then justice, injustice, vindictiveness, must all revive, too.”
“No. They’re recalled; they don’t revive.”
“But must a criminal, for instance, be allowed to escape because they
have failed to catch him the day he did the deed?”
“That’s exactly it. It makes no difference. He couldn’t atone here for
an act committed by him during another existence. But that particular
minute goes pretty red into its pigeon-hole, you may be sure.”
“Oh, it’s wild nonsense,” I laughed. “You can’t possibly be
consistent.”
“Can’t I? Look here, you are my friend yesterday, and to-day, and
always, I hope. I judge you daily on your merits, yet, for all I know,
you may have committed murder in one of your past existences?”
The blood went back upon my heart. Then a great longing awoke in me to
tell all to this self-reliant soul and gain comfort of my sorrow. But
where was the good in the broad face of his theory?
“Well,” I said, with a sigh, “I’ve done things at least I bitterly
repent of.”
“That’s the conventional way of looking at it. Repentance in this
won’t avail a former existence. Past days of mine have had their
troubles, no doubt, but this day I have before me unclouded and to do
what I like with.”
“Well, what shall we do with it?” said I. “I hand it over to you to
make it a happiness for me. I dare say we shall find plenty of sorrows
between sunrise and evening to give it a melancholy charm.”
“Rubbish!” cried my friend. “Cant, cant, cant, ever to suppose that
sorrow is necessary to happiness! We mortals, I tell you, have an
infinite capacity for delight; given health, spiritual and bodily, we
could dance in the sunbeams for eternity and never reach a surfeit of
pleasure.”
“Duke,” said I--“may I call you Duke?”
“Of course.”
“It puzzles me where you got--I don’t mean offense--only I can’t help
wondering----”
“How I came to have original thoughts and a grammatical manner of
speech? Look here----” he held up his stained fingers--“aren’t these
the hands of a man of letters?”
“And a man of action,” I said, with a laugh. “But----”
“It’s no use, Renny. I can’t look further back than this morning.”
“You can recall, you know. You don’t deny each existence that
capacity?”
“Perhaps I could; but to what advantage? To shovel up a whole
graveyard of sleeping remembrances to find the seed of one dead nettle
that thrusts its head through? No, thank you. Besides, if it comes to
that, I might put the same question to you.”