By and by, breaking into the open again, I came upon an inn, favored
of tourists, that stood back from a road. I was parched and exhausted,
and thought a glass of beer would revive me to a fresh start. Walking
into the tap I passed by the open door of the coffee-room, and there
inside were they seated at a table together, and a waiter was
uncorking a bottle of champagne behind them.
Why didn’t I go in then and there? I had found my quarry and the game
might yet be mine. Ask the stricken lover who will pursue his lady
hotly through anxious hours and then, when he sees her at last, will
saunter carelessly by as if his heart were cold to her attractions.
Some such motive, in a form infinitely baser, was mine. I may call it
pride, and hear the wheel creak out a sardonic laugh.
“They seem happy enough without me,” my heart said, but my conscience
knew the selfishness that must nurse an injury above any sore need of
the injurer.
Their voices came to me happy and merry. They had not seen me. I drank
my beer and stole outside miserably temporizing with my duty.
“She sha’n’t escape again,” I thought; “I’ll go a little distance off
and watch.”
I waited long, but they never came. At length, stung to desperation, I
strode back to the inn and straight into the coffee-room. It was
empty. Seeing a waiter, I asked him if the lady and gentleman who had
lunched at such a table had left.
“Yes,” he said. He believed the lady and gentleman had gone into the
forest by the garden way.
Then I was baffled again. Surely the curse of the virago of the
morning was operating after all.
Evening drew on, and at last there was no help for it but to make for
the station and catch our usual train back to town.
They were standing on the platform when I reached it. I walked
straight up to them. Dolly flushed crimson when she saw me and then
went pale as a windflower, but she never spoke a word.
“Hullo!” said Jason. “The wanderer returned. We’ve had a rare day of
it; and you have, too, no doubt.”
I spoke steadily, with a set determination to prove master of myself.
“I’ve been looking for you all day. Dolly, I’m sorry I left you in a
temper. Please forgive me, dear.”
“Oh, yes,” she said, indifferently and weariedly. “It doesn’t matter.”
“But it does matter to me, Dolly, very much, to keep your good
opinion.”
She turned and looked at me with a strange expression, as if she were
on the point of bursting into tears, but she only ended with a little
formless laugh and looked away again.
“I don’t think you can value my good opinion much, and I’m sure I
don’t know why you should.”
The train lunging in at this point stopped our further talk; and, once
seated in it, the girl lay back in her corner with closed eyes as if
asleep.
Jason sat silent, with folded arms, the lamplight below the shadow
cast by his hat brim emphasizing the smile on his firmly curved lips;
and I, for my part, sat silent also, for my heart seemed sick unto
death.