denying herself the cheapest indulgences of mere flavour; her only
rebellion was to smuggle into the kitchen something that would make
rather a better supper than usual for Tom.
These narrow notions about debt, held by the old fashioned Tullivers,
may perhaps excite a smile on the faces of many readers in these days
of wide commercial views and wide philosophy, according to which
everything rights itself without any trouble of ours. The fact that my
tradesman is out of pocket by me is to be looked at through the serene
certainty that somebody else’s tradesman is in pocket by somebody else;
and since there must be bad debts in the world, why, it is mere egoism
not to like that we in particular should make them instead of our
fellow-citizens. I am telling the history of very simple people, who
had never had any illuminating doubts as to personal integrity and
honour.
Under all this grim melancholy and narrowing concentration of desire,
Mr Tulliver retained the feeling toward his “little wench” which made
her presence a need to him, though it would not suffice to cheer him.
She was still the desire of his eyes; but the sweet spring of fatherly
love was now mingled with bitterness, like everything else. When Maggie
laid down her work at night, it was her habit to get a low stool and
sit by her father’s knee, leaning her cheek against it. How she wished
he would stroke her head, or give some sign that he was soothed by the
sense that he had a daughter who loved him! But now she got no answer
to her little caresses, either from her father or from Tom,—the two
idols of her life. Tom was weary and abstracted in the short intervals
when he was at home, and her father was bitterly preoccupied with the
thought that the girl was growing up, was shooting up into a woman; and
how was she to do well in life? She had a poor chance for marrying,
down in the world as they were. And he hated the thought of her
marrying poorly, as her aunt Gritty had done; _that_ would be a thing
to make him turn in his grave,—the little wench so pulled down by
children and toil, as her aunt Moss was. When uncultured minds,
confined to a narrow range of personal experience, are under the
pressure of continued misfortune, their inward life is apt to become a
perpetually repeated round of sad and bitter thoughts; the same words,
the same scenes, are revolved over and over again, the same mood
accompanies them; the end of the year finds them as much what they were
at the beginning as if they were machines set to a recurrent series of
movements.