The Mill on the Floss — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mill on the Floss
John Stuart Mill · en
Mr Tulliver lingered nowhere away from home; he hurried away from
market, he refused all invitations to stay and chat, as in old times,
in the houses where he called on business. He could not be reconciled
with his lot. There was no attitude in which his pride did not feel its
bruises; and in all behaviour toward him, whether kind or cold, he
detected an allusion to the change in his circumstances. Even the days
on which Wakem came to ride round the land and inquire into the
business were not so black to him as those market-days on which he had
met several creditors who had accepted a composition from him. To save
something toward the repayment of those creditors was the object toward
which he was now bending all his thoughts and efforts; and under the
influence of this all-compelling demand of his nature, the somewhat
profuse man, who hated to be stinted or to stint any one else in his
own house, was gradually metamorphosed into the keen-eyed grudger of
morsels. Mrs Tulliver could not economise enough to satisfy him, in
their food and firing; and he would eat nothing himself but what was of
the coarsest quality. Tom, though depressed and strongly repelled by
his father’s sullenness, and the dreariness of home, entered thoroughly
into his father’s feelings about paying the creditors; and the poor lad
brought his first quarter’s money, with a delicious sense of
achievement, and gave it to his father to put into the tin box which
held the savings. The little store of sovereigns in the tin box seemed
to be the only sight that brought a faint beam of pleasure into the
miller’s eyes,—faint and transient, for it was soon dispelled by the
thought that the time would be long—perhaps longer than his
life,—before the narrow savings could remove the hateful incubus of
debt. A deficit of more than five hundred pounds, with the accumulating
interest, seemed a deep pit to fill with the savings from thirty
shillings a-week, even when Tom’s probable savings were to be added. On
this one point there was entire community of feeling in the four widely
differing beings who sat round the dying fire of sticks, which made a
cheap warmth for them on the verge of bedtime. Mrs Tulliver carried the
proud integrity of the Dodsons in her blood, and had been brought up to
think that to wrong people of their money, which was another phrase for
debt, was a sort of moral pillory; it would have been wickedness, to
her mind, to have run counter to her husband’s desire to “do the right
thing,” and retrieve his name. She had a confused, dreamy notion that,
if the creditors were all paid, her plate and linen ought to come back
to her; but she had an inbred perception that while people owed money
they were unable to pay, they couldn’t rightly call anything their own.
She murmured a little that Mr Tulliver so peremptorily refused to
receive anything in repayment from Mr and Mrs Moss; but to all his
requirements of household economy she was submissive to the point of