The Mill on the Floss — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mill on the Floss
John Stuart Mill · en
The old books, Virgil, Euclid, and Aldrich—that wrinkled fruit of the
tree of knowledge—had been all laid by; for Maggie had turned her back
on the vain ambition to share the thoughts of the wise. In her first
ardor she flung away the books with a sort of triumph that she had
risen above the need of them; and if they had been her own, she would
have burned them, believing that she would never repent. She read so
eagerly and constantly in her three books, the Bible, Thomas à Kempis,
and the “Christian Year” (no longer rejected as a “hymn-book”), that
they filled her mind with a continual stream of rhythmic memories; and
she was too ardently learning to see all nature and life in the light
of her new faith, to need any other material for her mind to work on,
as she sat with her well-plied needle, making shirts and other
complicated stitchings, falsely called “plain,”—by no means plain to
Maggie, since wristband and sleeve and the like had a capability of
being sewed in wrong side outward in moments of mental wandering.
Hanging diligently over her sewing, Maggie was a sight any one might
have been pleased to look at. That new inward life of hers,
notwithstanding some volcanic upheavings of imprisoned passions, yet
shone out in her face with a tender soft light that mingled itself as
added loveliness with the gradually enriched colour and outline of her
blossoming youth. Her mother felt the change in her with a sort of
puzzled wonder that Maggie should be “growing up so good”; it was
amazing that this once “contrairy” child was become so submissive, so
backward to assert her own will. Maggie used to look up from her work
and find her mother’s eyes fixed upon her; they were watching and
waiting for the large young glance, as if her elder frame got some
needful warmth from it. The mother was getting fond of her tall, brown
girl,—the only bit of furniture now on which she could bestow her
anxiety and pride; and Maggie, in spite of her own ascetic wish to have
no personal adornment, was obliged to give way to her mother about her
hair, and submit to have the abundant black locks plaited into a
coronet on the summit of her head, after the pitiable fashion of those
antiquated times.
“Let your mother have that bit o’ pleasure, my dear,” said Mrs
Tulliver; “I’d trouble enough with your hair once.”
So Maggie, glad of anything that would soothe her mother, and cheer
their long day together, consented to the vain decoration, and showed a
queenly head above her old frocks, steadily refusing, however, to look
at herself in the glass. Mrs Tulliver liked to call the father’s
attention to Maggie’s hair and other unexpected virtues, but he had a
brusque reply to give.
“I knew well enough what she’d be, before now,—it’s nothing new to me.
But it’s a pity she isn’t made o’ commoner stuff; she’ll be thrown
away, I doubt,—there’ll be nobody to marry her as is fit for her.”