“I can’t help thinking,” she said, looking smilingly at him, after a
few moments of silence, “how strange it is that we should have met and
talked to each other, just as if it had been only yesterday when we
parted at Lorton. And yet we must both be very much altered in those
five years,—I think it is five years. How was it you seemed to have a
sort of feeling that I was the same Maggie? I was not quite so sure
that you would be the same; I know you are so clever, and you must have
seen and learnt so much to fill your mind; I was not quite sure you
would care about me now.”
“I have never had any doubt that you would be the same, whenever I
might see you,” said Philip,—“I mean, the same in everything that made
me like you better than any one else. I don’t want to explain that; I
don’t think any of the strongest effects our natures are susceptible of
can ever be explained. We can neither detect the process by which they
are arrived at, nor the mode in which they act on us. The greatest of
painters only once painted a mysteriously divine child; he couldn’t
have told how he did it, and we can’t tell why we feel it to be divine.
I think there are stores laid up in our human nature that our
understandings can make no complete inventory of. Certain strains of
music affect me so strangely; I can never hear them without their
changing my whole attitude of mind for a time, and if the effect would
last, I might be capable of heroisms.”
“Ah! I know what you mean about music; _I_ feel so,” said Maggie,
clasping her hands with her old impetuosity. “At least,” she added, in
a saddened tone, “I used to feel so when I had any music; I never have
any now except the organ at church.”
“And you long for it, Maggie?” said Philip, looking at her with
affectionate pity. “Ah, you can have very little that is beautiful in
your life. Have you many books? You were so fond of them when you were
a little girl.”
They were come back to the hollow, round which the dog-roses grew, and
they both paused under the charm of the faëry evening light, reflected
from the pale pink clusters.
“No, I have given up books,” said Maggie, quietly, “except a very, very
few.”
Philip had already taken from his pocket a small volume, and was
looking at the back as he said:
“Ah, this is the second volume, I see, else you might have liked to
take it home with you. I put it in my pocket because I am studying a
scene for a picture.”
Maggie had looked at the back too, and saw the title; it revived an old
impression with overmastering force.