“I don’t wish it, dear Tom, at least as things are; I see that it would
lead to misery. But I shall soon go away to another situation, and I
should like to be friends with him again while I am here. Lucy wishes
it.”
The severity of Tom’s face relaxed a little.
“I shouldn’t mind your seeing him occasionally at my uncle’s—I don’t
want you to make a fuss on the subject. But I have no confidence in
you, Maggie. You would be led away to do anything.”
That was a cruel word. Maggie’s lip began to tremble.
“Why will you say that, Tom? It is very hard of you. Have I not done
and borne everything as well as I could? And I kept my word to
you—when—when——My life has not been a happy one, any more than yours.”
She was obliged to be childish; the tears would come. When Maggie was
not angry, she was as dependent on kind or cold words as a daisy on the
sunshine or the cloud; the need of being loved would always subdue her,
as, in old days, it subdued her in the worm-eaten attic. The brother’s
goodness came uppermost at this appeal, but it could only show itself
in Tom’s fashion. He put his hand gently on her arm, and said, in the
tone of a kind pedagogue,—
“Now listen to me, Maggie. I’ll tell you what I mean. You’re always in
extremes; you have no judgment and self-command; and yet you think you
know best, and will not submit to be guided. You know I didn’t wish you
to take a situation. My aunt Pullet was willing to give you a good
home, and you might have lived respectably amongst your relations,
until I could have provided a home for you with my mother. And that is
what I should like to do. I wished my sister to be a lady, and I always
have taken care of you, as my father desired, until you were well
married. But your ideas and mine never accord, and you will not give
way. Yet you might have sense enough to see that a brother, who goes
out into the world and mixes with men, necessarily knows better what is
right and respectable for his sister than she can know herself. You
think I am not kind; but my kindness can only be directed by what I
believe to be good for you.”
“Yes, I know, dear Tom,” said Maggie, still half-sobbing, but trying to
control her tears. “I know you would do a great deal for me; I know how
you work, and don’t spare yourself. I am grateful to you. But, indeed,
you can’t quite judge for me; our natures are very different. You don’t
know how differently things affect me from what they do you.”