The Mill on the Floss — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mill on the Floss
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“I wish Lucy had not been obliged to go out. We lose our music.”
“We shall have a new voice to-morrow night,” said Stephen. “Will you
tell your cousin that our friend Philip Wakem is come back? I saw him
as I went home.”
Maggie gave a little start,—it seemed hardly more than a vibration that
passed from head to foot in an instant. But the new images summoned by
Philip’s name dispersed half the oppressive spell she had been under.
She rose from her chair with a sudden resolution, and laying Minny on
his cushion, went to reach Lucy’s large work-basket from its corner.
Stephen was vexed and disappointed; he thought perhaps Maggie didn’t
like the name of Wakem to be mentioned to her in that abrupt way, for
he now recalled what Lucy had told him of the family quarrel. It was of
no use to stay any longer. Maggie was seating herself at the table with
her work, and looking chill and proud; and he—he looked like a
simpleton for having come. A gratuitous, entirely superfluous visit of
that sort was sure to make a man disagreeable and ridiculous. Of course
it was palpable to Maggie’s thinking that he had dined hastily in his
own room for the sake of setting off again and finding her alone.
A boyish state of mind for an accomplished young gentleman of
five-and-twenty, not without legal knowledge! But a reference to
history, perhaps, may make it not incredible.
At this moment Maggie’s ball of knitting-wool rolled along the ground,
and she started up to reach it. Stephen rose too, and picking up the
ball, met her with a vexed, complaining look that gave his eyes quite a
new expression to Maggie, whose own eyes met them as he presented the
ball to her.
“Good-bye,” said Stephen, in a tone that had the same beseeching
discontent as his eyes. He dared not put out his hand; he thrust both
hands into his tail-pockets as he spoke. Maggie thought she had perhaps
been rude.
“Won’t you stay?” she said timidly, not looking away, for that would
have seemed rude again.
“No, thank you,” said Stephen, looking still into the half-unwilling,
half-fascinated eyes, as a thirsty man looks toward the track of the
distant brook. “The boat is waiting for me. You’ll tell your cousin?”
“Yes.”
“That I brought the music, I mean?”
“Yes.”
“And that Philip is come back?”
“Yes.” (Maggie did not notice Philip’s name this time.)
“Won’t you come out a little way into the garden?” said Stephen, in a
still gentler tone; but the next moment he was vexed that she did not
say “No,” for she moved away now toward the open window, and he was
obliged to take his hat and walk by her side. But he thought of
something to make him amends.
“Do take my arm,” he said, in a low tone, as if it were a secret.